Feeling of impending doom...

[drivingaround]

Does anyone else have this? It's really getting to me at the moment. I think I've had it forever to some degree but it's got to the stage of constant dread, as though something terrible is going to happen. I can't think of anything objectively terrible that's going to happen but the feeling gets so strong that I *know* something is coming, but feel like/think I've forgotten what it is. Any time my mood is semi ok, this feeling gets worse and worse, until now I feel awful all the time even when I'm not actually depressed. It's my birthday today and my family thinks I'm doing fine but the feeling is overwhelming. I can't cry physically but my insides feel like they're collapsing and I'm just trying not to show it.

 

[Doormat]

Yes! Hit me this morning but not sure why. I keep thinking "is today the day I bail?" I think I'm going to be careful and see if it passes. How about you? Feel free to message if you want to vent.

 

[drivingaround]

Thanks.
I'm not really actively suicidal at the moment but the feeling is overwhelming.

 

[Doormat]

Thanks.
I'm not really actively suicidal at the moment but the feeling is overwhelming.

It's crippling, isn't it? Are you able to treat yourself at all for your birthday?

 

[ClownMe]

Yeah, i get that a lot.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I get that. There is always an underlying feeling of dread in my mind, sometimes it is stronger than other times. I've always been prone to anxiety as well. I dread the future a lot.

 

[drivingaround]

It's crippling, isn't it? Are you able to treat yourself at all for your birthday?

Yeah, it is definitely crippling at the moment. Yes, I had ice cream with a few friends, which was good. When we went our separate ways the doom returned but it was good.

 

[stygal]

Yeah, I definitely feel that when thinking about my future since there's no way around leaving.

I feel like... either I burn out completely by work/climate change is happening real quick or I mentally/physically break down.

 

[drivingaround]

My psychiatrist increased my one medication, so maybe that will help.
The feeling makes me want to escape into another world, like fantasy or being asleep and dreaming.

 

[PeacePlease]

I have it, it is so strong that I just got up from bed at almost 12:00 md I'm struggling to wake up everyday.

you mentioned "I can't cry physically but my insides feel like they're collapsing" I feel like this and it is a side effect of being on atidepressants, they numb you to the point where you can´t even cry but all the issues and pain are just being supressed deep inside

 

[drivingaround]

Sorry to hear that you're also suffering from this.
I used to cry all the time. I think for me it's also since starting testosterone as a trans guy - have had difficulty crying since then as well. It is a really horrible feeling inside when it feels like you have an entire "other" being that is expressing things differently.

The ominous feeling is really bad today and I'm struggling to do anything. Have to get work done but feel no motivation at all.

 

[Makko]

Where is the doom? WHERE IS IT?!

 

[drivingaround]

Yeah...
It's pretty bad today.
Anyone just get the feeling that you want to cry and you're crying inside, but nothing happens on the outside apart from shutting down?
Since some medication/hormone stuff in 2016 I have mostly lost the ability/urge to cry. I used to cry all the time. Now I'll cry at a few scenes of Lord Of The Rings and at sad videos about animals. I think the last time I cried because of a reason other than those was in 2018 or 2019. And also the feeling that I want a hug so badly, but there is nobody I want to hug.