Feeling Like Already Dead

[Sailfisher]

Anyone else feel like this?

 

[JoeFailure]

I do sometimes. Like I'm a dead man walking. At this point I think the world is trying to throw everything in my face now too. It was really strange but one day I was actually able to calm my anxiety down when I just told mother nature out loud that I'd do it if she just let me get some affairs in order so I don't leave my parents a mess and it actually worked. As if the world was like, "yeah ok, as long as you're going to do it, we can roll with that".

 

[Mljonzy]

Yes i died mentally about 16 years ago i want no part of this world i hate it i know my life is over but i just can't find the courage to end it. Not only is suicide scary and hard but i know it will crush some family members if i did it. These are preventing me from escaping this hell but at the same time it's my life, my decision and it is something i have to get past. Both paths i could take are dreadful stay alive and suffer for decades or ruin families life and die.

 

[Robbyna]

I'm just going through the motions of life. I can't wait to actually die.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Yep. I think there is still some part of me that is alive, another part is sorely dead

 

[durba1]

In other words, being neither dead nor alive.

 

[not_a_robot]

yep.
A LOT.
I said it during "feelings time" in a psych ward and got scolded and told not to share my real feelings anymore. "Called into the principal's office", and everything. Apparently the fact that shrinks have irrational emotional responses to me means I'm "provocative".

Did I mention, I think mental healthworkers are the nastiest fucking frauds on the planet and they should all go die in a fire?
Like, I'm not crazy, I don't want to actually set the fire or anything but, yeah, they can all just go fucking die in one.

 

[kolski]

All the time.. I have no friends and no one who cares if I'm around. I could disappear rn and no one would notice. My life is a series of bad mistakes and unfortunate events. I'm in a state of complete despair about my entire existence that's driving me insane. It's worse then death.

 

[Final Escape]

Anyone else feel like this?

Yes of course. Feel like I'm just surviving. Not a nice life, lonely, and isolated.

 

[blanketyblk]

Totally, i think when your lonely everything is just chore to do. which makes you feel like your just existing each day instead of living each day. simply things like cooking a meal. use to be enjoyable when you had other people who would share that meal with you. but now it's just the motions you do in order to feed your body.

 

[Fernandead]

I can't say I'm already dead since I still manage to survive. But I'll sure be dead soon, my friend.

 

[Scribble Fan]

Most of me died during middle school and got replaced by this cold, lonely vacancy. A dysfunctional family coupled with moving several times seems to do that (bye-bye friends and mental health).

It's hard to believe I've made it through ten years of this... nothingness, heavily mixed in with depression and anxiety. Half my life, hahaha. I'm sure there are others here who've weathered this for much longer.

Hopefully not me, maybe I'll be free. One way or another

 

[sicknessuntodeath]

Pretty much everyday feels like I'm walking dead.

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

Yes. I've been feeling like a sort of solid ghost since third grade, and it became a permanent fixture in 2010 when my ex threw me away. It's the weirdest feeling.