Feeling bit better. More absurdist than actively suicidal

[NameOfAction]

It happens with me. I'd like it to stick? For once? Like, I will die. It's not up to debate. I have just ~ 17000 days until I'm 70 and either dead naturally or self-delivering to avoid dementia.

Wouldn't it be nice to live for a while? Why do I have to inflict death upon myself before I'm even 27? Fuck if I know, ask me next time I'm buying sn

Just, like, don't die yet, people. I like y'all

Death isn't exactly optional

 

[kitkatt]

It happens with me. I'd like it to stick? For once? Like, I will die. It's not up to debate. I have just ~ 17000 days until I'm 70 and either dead naturally or self-delivering to avoid dementia.

Wouldn't it be nice to live for a while? Why do I have to inflict death upon myself before I'm even 27? Fuck if I know, ask me next time I'm buying sn

Just, like, don't die yet, people. I like y'all

Death isn't exactly optional

Fuck this is relatable man I want to die but I also don't but I definitely hate having to survive this rat race :( I feel like it wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't having to work so hard just to have the bare minimum if I'm lucky anyway. Have to go without groceries lots because I can't always afford to eat since you know I don't wanna be homeless. That would be my last straw for sure>:( I need to recover with all my things and kitties on the weekends not forever camping

 

[NameOfAction]

Fuck this is relatable man I want to die but I also don't but I definitely hate having to survive this rat race :( I feel like it wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't having to work so hard just to have the bare minimum if I'm lucky anyway. Have to go without groceries lots because I can't always afford to eat since you know I don't wanna be homeless. That would be my last straw for sure>:( I need to recover with all my things and kitties on the weekends not forever camping

I often wish I could leave my cats with my parents and fuck off backpacking to somewhere warm, sunny, rocky and picturesque.

Idk if a have the resources or the callousness to leave my cats and fuck off, but I really wish I did

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Yeah, I get it. Time goes by pretty fast. The older I've become, the more I keep thinking like "I may as well see how the movie ends." Dying is so intense. The hardest thing you will ever do. And it's the end of all earthly experiences - good, bad, and neutral. Might as well keep going as long as you're able.

 

[kitkatt]

I often wish I could leave my cats with my parents and fuck off backpacking to somewhere warm, sunny, rocky and picturesque.

Idk if a have the resources or the callousness to leave my cats and fuck off, but I really wish I did

Yea I feel that. I'd love to run away and go do or see something new and exciting but here I am shackled by capitalism and some agoraphobia

 

[NameOfAction]

Yeah, I get it. Time goes by pretty fast. The older I've become, the more I keep thinking like "I may as well see how the movie ends." Dying is so intense. The hardest thing you will ever do. And it's the end of all earthly experiences - good, bad, and neutral. Might as well keep going as long as you're able.

I actually don't see dying as intense or difficult. I just get overwhelmed by a simple tragedy of the life not lived

 

[yotaka]

I'm getting whiplash. Last night and this morning I was like, "That's it. I'm done. I'm out of here. This is my plan and it's happening." Fast forward to me reading this and being like, "Yeah, exactly! Might as well stick around and see how things play out." I wish I could make up my fuckin mind haha

 

[NameOfAction]

I'm getting whiplash. Last night and this morning I was like, "That's it. I'm done. I'm out of here. This is my plan and it's happening." Fast forward to me reading this and being like, "Yeah, exactly! Might as well stick around and see how things play out." I wish I could make up my fuckin mind haha

Welcome to BPD? Or is it bipolar 4u? Schizoid?

Wildly oscillating between contradicting beliefs is kinda bpd bread and butter

 

[yotaka]

Welcome to BPD? Or is it bipolar 4u? Schizoid?

Wildly oscillating between contradicting beliefs is kinda bpd bread and butter

The thing is, I don't think I have any of those. Just garden-variety depression and an absolute inability to commit to anything