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OutOfTheVoid
she/her
- Feb 10, 2023
- 199
for a while my girlfriend has been the only close friend i have. i thought i could still confide in her even after i decided i would ctb, but now we just get in arguments all the time. she knows she cant convince me to live, so she criticizes everything else i believe in instead and its been getting increasingly hostile. im tired of it
i was considering isolating myself anyway so that my death wouldnt hurt her as much. she's made that easier for me now. she's condemned my most deeply held beliefs, basically who i am. how can i stay close to her when we're clearly incompatible now?
i dont have any other irl friends really, and i dont want to find new ones bc i'd just cause them grief when i ctb. ive given up on all 'living' people, they wont understand me and i dont want to burden them. i already know everyone just thinks im crazy and ignores me. i feel invisible.
i think other pro-choice suicidal people are the only ones i can have any sort of connection with. im not bothering with pro-lifers or non-suicidal people anymore
i was considering isolating myself anyway so that my death wouldnt hurt her as much. she's made that easier for me now. she's condemned my most deeply held beliefs, basically who i am. how can i stay close to her when we're clearly incompatible now?
i dont have any other irl friends really, and i dont want to find new ones bc i'd just cause them grief when i ctb. ive given up on all 'living' people, they wont understand me and i dont want to burden them. i already know everyone just thinks im crazy and ignores me. i feel invisible.
i think other pro-choice suicidal people are the only ones i can have any sort of connection with. im not bothering with pro-lifers or non-suicidal people anymore