Mayerling86
Faking a smile is so much easier
- Jun 26, 2020
- 41
I had a mini breakdown the other day infront of my partner because of something he'd done that really broke my trust, and i finally told him (the only person who knows) how bad i really feel. I couldnt not because i went from being this emotionally strong, calm and happy individual (my front i show everyone) to a sobbing, shaking wreck in the middle of the street. He promised me he would take care and ensure i would be made to feel like there was lots to live for. His children are over and he went to go ape with them yesterday. I had a bit of an episode yesterday where i dwelled on what he'd done and i sent him a load of texts asking him to reassure me he wasn't there with the other woman hed met up with (platonic now but still an ex... I only found out about them meeting up with the kids the other day... I didn't even know she existed) and i only got a call at 8pm to say i was over thinking things. I then messaged him quite a few more texts telling him how much i was hurting over it all and they got read and ignored. He hasnt read my desperate message i sent him at 3am and hes ignoring my calls and messages now. I havent cut myself for 11 years and i just did now because im really struggling. He really was the only thing helping me get by and i opened up to him and i now feel like an unwanted liability and nuisance thats been pushed aside. It's really breaking my heart. Has anyone else opened up to someone and been made to feel unwanted directly after?