beyondbreath
Member
- Nov 19, 2019
- 44
I'm so tired of being the one people can disrespect without consequence. Interrupted constantly, concerns dismissed regularly, people playing little games to assert their power. I'm so mousy and unthreatening. For my whole life it's been this way. From the people who raised me abusing me, to the social workers forcing me back into an abusive home, to bullies at school, to my own "best friend" being a total bitch and constantly interrupting me and making fun of me and dismissing my perspectives. It's a problem everywhere from work to friendship. I am trying my best to grow a spine so that for example next time my friend is rude I will call her out and not back down or attempt to placate her when she responds by pouting like a little boy (we are 28 years old) or going mega bitch mode in response. But fucking hell. I'm tired of being made to feel small and insignificant by everyone in everything. I want to matter.
