Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
I feel like dirt. Low.
Borderline suicidal yeah actually feeling suicidal.
Everytime I try to reach the best outcome for tge day someone gets in the way. Never lived on my own so its always been like that.
I wanna lay a corpse for clean up. I am FED UP.
I have a headache yet I ate and drank water today.
Thats what hapoens when nearlt EVERY FUCKING DAY My body is being send to from -20 to 100. Then back down to -50 and settling somewhere there.
I feel fucking awful. What even if self soothing. What even is peace. I just fall into a very medium meh but that's me. Everyday i fight to more than meh. I fight to not be worse than meh. I always end up at meh.
I don't have anyone to talk to. Its after 5pm so workers are at home. Staff tbat is working rn triggers me hella so I dont speak to her much and she's cone to completely disregard my presence. Either way I don't feel comfortable speaking to her.
I feel so alone and just wanting to self harm or sleep.
I wish i could sleep. I hope I can sleep.
Borderline suicidal yeah actually feeling suicidal.
Everytime I try to reach the best outcome for tge day someone gets in the way. Never lived on my own so its always been like that.
I wanna lay a corpse for clean up. I am FED UP.
I have a headache yet I ate and drank water today.
Thats what hapoens when nearlt EVERY FUCKING DAY My body is being send to from -20 to 100. Then back down to -50 and settling somewhere there.
I feel fucking awful. What even if self soothing. What even is peace. I just fall into a very medium meh but that's me. Everyday i fight to more than meh. I fight to not be worse than meh. I always end up at meh.
I don't have anyone to talk to. Its after 5pm so workers are at home. Staff tbat is working rn triggers me hella so I dont speak to her much and she's cone to completely disregard my presence. Either way I don't feel comfortable speaking to her.
I feel so alone and just wanting to self harm or sleep.
I wish i could sleep. I hope I can sleep.
