My biggest problem with work personally, is interviews. There is nothing on this earth I hate more. But there are absolutely other issues as well, like those you mentioned and countless other worries. I don't know what job I'd really enjoy most of the time (if any) but there are jobs I know for sure I DON'T want. I even hate the word job. I want to work but there's not much that disgusts me more than sucking up to an employer just for an opportunity to work for them.
Yeah it's quite degrading and humiliating. Starts with spending hours writing applications, then interviews trying to sell yourself to them even though you don't want to. Then you get the job and they own and control you. They decide when you go to work, what you wear, what you can say, act etc. They decide what you're allowed to do in your free time, re: drugs, social media etc. Then it's a matter of struggling to spend over half your waking life going to work, suffering with mental and physical turmoil. All other aspects of life end up revolving around work. Time away from work is spent by trying to recover from work or preparing for going back. Its all so fake an unnatural. Some people seem to tolerate it. To those, I say they're not being honest with themselves. They've convinced themselves that it is normal and ok. Not me.
The problem is basically capitalism and I also think it's pretty depressing how much this is just accepted by most people.
2 people could have the same life with the same experiences, and person A will be happy and person B will be miserable just because they have different perspectives on life. BUT it will always be person B that's told their view is wrong and therefore they have a mental illness. Why is that? I think it's because person B's perspective means they are at risk of not being a productive worker, whereas person A who's all cheerful doesn't give a shit that their life is meaningless and they're part of a global money making farm will just keep pumping out work blissfully unaware that life is SHIT.
I genuinely believe that the people of the world who are happy are the ones with living with a mental illness but because these people are good workers it's in the interest of governments and billionaires that they stay happy and productive.
Not being happy about having to work to have a fucking roof over your head and feed yourself results in you being told you're mentally unwell. You don't owe the world anything for being born, the world owes you - so just please don't call yourself a failure. What country are you in? Do you have options for disability payments or something?
i am a bit drunk and ranting so sorry if i don't make sense
Nah that makes perfect sense. I really appreciate it. It summarises my thoughts accurately. I'm not convinced capitalism is at the root. Maybe it is, but I don't believe there is a better alternative we are aware of. I think it's far broader than capitalism. I see the human race as a whole as a toxic cancer. I like your point about perspective; why am I told there is something wrong with me? The problem is society/capitalism/the system, and because I am honest with myself about it, there's something wrong with me?
Objectively, I have not succeeded in this system (financially, socially, education, intelligence, self efficacy, physically, mentally, relationships etc.) I don't even have any passions anymore.
I'm in Australia. I've tried seeking help through every avenue I'm aware of and only met brick wall after brick wall. Its no wonder suicide is the leading cause of death for males between 18-40 in Aus.