Fear of the pain

[Violet]

Hello. I have a long history, like many of you.
Since 5 months ago I think about suicide every day and it's the only thing that helps me get to sleep, I'm not depressed or sick, I've just lost everything I had and I don´t want to continue living like that.

I am very afraid of physical pain, also very afraid of surviving an attempt and what that would mean, but I have decided it. For me the ideal would be a pill or any substance that killed you quickly and painlessly, How can I get something like that? I got money but no knowledge on this subject. Could anyone help me? thank you very much

 

[Moth]

There's lots of information on this forum, I believe there's also a link to the wiki

 

[DownInaHole]

Do you still have your physical health Violet?

 

[Violet]

yes, i have

 

[DownInaHole]

Good, so you have the most important thing still. Did you lose physical possessions, job/career, or someone you cared about?

 

[Kirkscoobz]

Hi Vioilet,

I won't ask how are you as you post speaks volumes and it saddens me,
There are so like us that feel this way here which in a way is good thing because there will always be some body here if needed,
Pain wise if and when I do decide to suicide and I'm successful I won't remember any pain,
My chosen methods are /

Pills in winter time outside
Or pills in doors with the scuba mask to bag method,
Before you attempt anything mind talk to people here and research,
Be safe

 

[Violet]

Hi Vioilet,

I won't ask how are you as you post speaks volumes and it saddens me,
There are so like us that feel this way here which in a way is good thing because there will always be some body here if needed,
Pain wise if and when I do decide to suicide and I'm successful I won't remember any pain,
My chosen methods are /

Pills in winter time outside
Or pills in doors with the scuba mask to bag method,
Before you attempt anything mind talk to people here and research,
Be safe

"the scuba mask to bag method" you mean the nitrogean method? how letal would be? and do you find the material and tools easily?

 

[Violet]

Good, so you have the most important thing still. Did you lose physical possessions, job/career, or someone you cared about?

Thanks for your consideration, but i prefer not to talk about my life.
It will not fix anything

 

[DownInaHole]

ok

 

[itsallover]

Hello. I am 33 years old and have a long history, like many of you.
Since 5 months ago I think about suicide every day and it's the only thing that helps me get to sleep, I'm not depressed or sick, I've just lost everything I had and I don´t want to continue living like that.

I am very afraid of physical pain, also very afraid of surviving an attempt and what that would mean, but I have decided it. For me the ideal would be a pill or any substance that killed you quickly and painlessly, How can I get something like that? I got money but no knowledge on this subject. Could anyone help me? thank you very much

I think n is the surest, least painful way. Personally I wanna jump since there's no going back once you let go and I won't traumatize my family finding me. Thinking of suicide and ending my daily nightmare gives me some peace too.

 

[Violet]

I think n is the surest, least painful way. Personally I wanna jump since there's no going back once you let go and I won't traumatize my family finding me. Thinking of suicide and ending my daily nightmare gives me some peace too.

yes, Nitrogen is my second choice after pills.

 

[Kirkscoobz]

"the scuba mask to bag method" you mean the nitrogean method? how letal would be? and do you find the material and tools easily?

In a way yes but its carbon monoxide bag poisoning through taking pills and sleeping deeply, you will need the scuba mask because it cannot be removed if you do move to try and remove it.
All of the items I needed were purchased through Amazon UK.

 

[itsallover]

yes, Nitrogen is my second choice after pills.

I tried pills and was in a coma for a few days. I could have been left a vegetable. Overdoses are very unreliable. About 5 percent succeed. N is nembutal. It's an expensive euthanasia drug you can buy.

 

[Violet]

I tried pills and was in a coma for a few days. I could have been left a vegetable. Overdoses are very unreliable. About 5 percent succeed. N is nembutal. It's an expensive euthanasia drug you can buy.

very valuable information, thanks

 

[Violet]

In a way yes but its carbon monoxide bag poisoning through taking pills and sleeping deeply, you will need the scuba mask because it cannot be removed if you do move to try and remove it.
All of the items I needed were purchased through Amazon UK.

interesting. Thanks a lot

 

[Kirkscoobz]

I tried pills and was in a coma for a few days. I could have been left a vegetable. Overdoses are very unreliable. About 5 percent succeed. N is nembutal. It's an expensive euthanasia drug you can buy.

can'tdecide

Hello my friend,
Can you purchase Nembutal in the UK.

Thanks.

 

[Minjung Ko]

can'tdecide

Hello my friend,
Can you purchase Nembutal in the UK.

Thanks.

Only Chinese dealers you can order from. If you are around Liverpool, its a plus

 

[Its almost time]

Only Chinese dealers you can order from. If you are around Liverpool, its a plus

I am in Liverpool, where is it possible to order Nembutal?

 

[Sickman75]

Hello. I have a long history, like many of you.
Since 5 months ago I think about suicide every day and it's the only thing that helps me get to sleep, I'm not depressed or sick, I've just lost everything I had and I don´t want to continue living like that.

I am very afraid of physical pain, also very afraid of surviving an attempt and what that would mean, but I have decided it. For me the ideal would be a pill or any substance that killed you quickly and painlessly, How can I get something like that? I got money but no knowledge on this subject. Could anyone help me? thank you very much

Have you considered the SN method? I think that's about as easy as it gets.

 

[Kirkscoobz]

Minjung Ko,

My brother lives in Liverpool, please let me know.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I am very afraid of physical pain, also very afraid of surviving an attempt and what that would mean, but I have decided it. For me the ideal would be a pill or any substance that killed you quickly and painlessly,

Big hug to you. I feel exactly as you do.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Have you considered the SN method? I think that's about as easy as it gets.

I was thinking this, too. Originally, I'd chosen N, but SN seems much easier to acquire and has a longer shelf life...

 

[Kirkscoobz]

FTL.Wanderer,

What location can this be purchased, can we purchase in the UK.

 

[TheCrow]

Only Chinese dealers you can order from. If you are around Liverpool, its a plus

I am in Liverpool, where is it possible to order Nembutal?

Minjung Ko,

My brother lives in Liverpool, please let me know.

A is the only person to buy N from.

 

[Kirkscoobz]

Who's that then.

 

[TheCrow]

Who's that then.

He is a veterinarian in Mexico. This thread should help:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/megathread-getting-n-from-a.2544/

 

[Kirkscoobz]

People don't really rate the seller, plus registering for a bitcoin account seems like too hard work.

 

[TheCrow]

People don't really rate the seller, plus registering for a bitcoin account seems like too hard work.

He's the only one. Everyone here buys from him. Anyone else is a scammer. Bitcoin sounds like a pain in the ass to me, but others have figured it out. If you want N, he's the only person to go to.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Not to sound rude or anything. My opinion about pain and suicide.

If you truly feel scared about a little pain, you are not ready to ctb. When you'll won't be afraid anymore, when you feel like you're done with everything, a little pain will be the last thing you'll think about. It's my mindset.

 

[Sickman75]

I was thinking this, too. Originally, I'd chosen N, but SN seems much easier to acquire and has a longer shelf life...

Right. Easy to obtain too! I don't think you'd have much troubles receiving it since it's used for curing meats and such. The anti vomit pills I could see being the only issues, but according to @Xerxes he didn't have any nauseous feelings at all.