Mirelight
Just going through life's motions
- May 21, 2024
- 240
I hate being in proximity to people I find physically or sexually appealing. Like, I'm sure most of them are perfectly good people with their own lives and problems but whenever I'm interacting with them, I feel like I do not have as much agency over my actions as I usually do. I feel compelled to agree with them. Things I would normally do for others with some reluctance or even say no to, I find myself happy and pleased to have done it for this person. Pleased by the fact that they found it comfortable around me to ask of something from me.
I just find this power dynamics to be really disturbing specially because it comes from a place you can't control and can come from a person you met just second ago. I personally don't have anything against them but I will probably try and continue distancing myself from people like these at least until I feel this urge go away.
I just find this power dynamics to be really disturbing specially because it comes from a place you can't control and can come from a person you met just second ago. I personally don't have anything against them but I will probably try and continue distancing myself from people like these at least until I feel this urge go away.
