Fear of death

[vizualbandtit]

I've been depressed and have had dp/dr (derealization) constantly since I was 11. I've tried therapy for 5 years now, but it just isn't working. I know people in my life love me but they're sick of me being this way. I know they're sick of my problems, sick of my psych ward visits, sick of me going back to square one after progress every few months and sick of me not being able to do even the bare minimum. I don't have the power to go on anymore, I'm tired. I don't know why my brain holds on, as if there's anything left for me. Fear of missing out on the future, maybe. But I'm tired, I'm so tired, I just can't. The fear of death is holding me back, and I don't know if I should just lay on my bed and do nothing until I finally succumb and the weight of living another day surpasses my fear of death. All I've wanted was one good day, just, anything. How do I let go of being curious about what the future holds? Because I certainly cannot go on much longer. I simply just can't.

 

[Thomas_Europe]

I've been depressed and have had dp/dr (derealization) constantly since I was 11. I've tried therapy for 5 years now, but it just isn't working. I know people in my life love me but they're sick of me being this way. I know they're sick of my problems, sick of my psych ward visits, sick of me going back to square one after progress every few months and sick of me not being able to do even the bare minimum. I don't have the power to go on anymore, I'm tired. I don't know why my brain holds on, as if there's anything left for me. Fear of missing out on the future, maybe. But I'm tired, I'm so tired, I just can't. The fear of death is holding me back, and I don't know if I should just lay on my bed and do nothing until I finally succumb and the weight of living another day surpasses my fear of death. All I've wanted was one good day, just, anything. How do I let go of being curious about what the future holds? Because I certainly cannot go on much longer. I simply just can't.

what do you believe will happen to you after your death? Afterlife? Heaven? Hell? Or simply nothing? If the later is true for you, you don't have to fear anything because you don't exist anymore and thus you don't have any fears of missing out etc

 

[areyousafe??]

What do you think happens after death?

For me, it's nothing, it is simply non existence. That is both why death is scary and also appealing to me.

 

[Thomas_Europe]

What do you think happens after death?

For me, it's nothing, it is simply non existence. That is both why death is scary and also appealing to me.

And this is just appealing to me. It doesn't scare me because I don't have to care anymore.

 

[Richard Langford]

What do you think happens after death?

For me, it's nothing, it is simply non existence. That is both why death is scary and also appealing to me.

A few of us on here have had experiences in our lives that are difficult to explain rationally. We might not be able to understand or explain them but its made some of us think there's something more going on. Not a popular opinion on here really.

 

[bananaolympus]

I don't fear death i fear dying alone

 

[loveable_lamb]

what do you believe will happen to you after your death? Afterlife? Heaven? Hell? Or simply nothing? If the later is true for you, you don't have to fear anything because you don't exist anymore and thus you don't have any fears of missing out etc

I personally believe there's simply nothing, so that's why I don't really have fomo. But I'm just so scared of the unknown, actually making "the leap" and the guilt of hurting my loved ones is eating me alive (although I know the latter won't bother me when I'm dead). So I do really get OP

 

[Richard Langford]

I don't fear death i fear dying alone

I suppose why I'm looking to do it in my sleep.

 

[areyousafe??]

And this is just appealing to me. It doesn't scare me because I don't have to care anymore.

What do you care about?

I don't really care about anything. I'm just fed up with life, everything breaks me apart, people break me apart so I now prefer spending time by myself to avoid getting hurt. Surprisingly, it's not lonely for me to spend time away from people. Online is the only place I can open up.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I've personally always felt so tired of it all. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[vizualbandtit]

what do you believe will happen to you after your death? Afterlife? Heaven? Hell? Or simply nothing? If the later is true for you, you don't have to fear anything because you don't exist anymore and thus you don't have any fears of missing out etc

I believe there's nothing after death, and bring nothing is more appealing than being something most of the time.

What do you think happens after death?

For me, it's nothing, it is simply non existence. That is both why death is scary and also appealing to me.

This is how I feel too, it's cold but comforting

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I've personally always felt so tired of it all. But anyway I wish you the best.

I'm glad there's people that get it. Thank you, i wish you all the best too.