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mattf72
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- Nov 22, 2020
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I'm conflicted, I wanna leave as soon as possible, but fear is holding me back. I have an out of state license so I can't buy a handgun, and I'm afraid of pulling the trigger. I don't know how to rig an exit bag, I'm afraid of fucking up CO poisoning, and my chronic illness makes it hard for benzos to put me to sleep and I barely sleep anyway, so the SN method scares me. I wanna go quick but I don't know what to do? Does anybody else have a hard time choosing a method? I want something painless that's guaranteed. It all just seems so out of reach. Why is it so hard to die ?