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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
Can we all share our favorite poems?
I'll start (long post)

Let me tell you something
No one is going to look at you broken and shattered and think
damn,
you are beautiful
no one is going to come pick up your broken pieces off the floor and assemble them into a beautiful whole.
hell,
You won't even look at yourself and think
I
make
broken
look
beautiful
you know why?
because all those writers lied to you
yes,
all those with their poems of scraped knuckles, blood dripping down chin, pomegranate songs and love that ripped through you like hurricanes..
Liars,
so you and I?
we're going to make a plan,
you are not going to romanticize the days when your brain tells you to smash that mirror
you are not going to romanticize the lover who doesn't understand you but still writes about you
here is what you are going to romanticize instead:
you are going to romanticize the first day of spring,
it's gentle hands all over your body lifting you up until you are as light as a feather
You are going to romanticize the tea and honey kind of love
No hurricanes
But Sunshine that build you up from within
that helps you make it through the worst days
You are going to romanticize the Gentle hand of a friend in yours telling you that is going to be ok,
because it is
and don't trust poets
we're no good
we love pretending that our jagged edges tantamount to a beautiful disaster but in reality, there ain't nothing beautiful about shaky hands holding a cigarette and empty eyes staring at the cracks in the walls.
You know what's beautiful instead?
the days when you can look at yourself in the mirror and smile,
scars and all
music that makes your soul flow like a river books that offer comfort
families flocking together like overgrown Birds to keep you safe and warm
friends that give you strength when you can't find it
lovers who make you laugh through tears
Baby,
From now on you're going to romanticize Healing
Honey dripping down your fingertips
August Nights that stick to your skin
Car rides
and singing so loud that no one can shut you up now
The day
you find your purpose
Bad news: no one can save you
Good news: you can save yourself
-Lana Rafael
I realize these words kind of goes against this site but nonetheless. I still love it.
 
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AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
This is called Can't wait
I lay in my bed and think about you.

I love you so much I don't know what to do.

The pain in my heart moves to my eyes.

So far away, yet always so near.

You are the reason I am still here.


I can't wait the times when we can talk

I can't wait the times when we can finally hold hands and walk.

To feel you for real... so close to me and near...

The happiest person in the world is what you would make me.


Your blue eyes shine like a million suns.

You shine more brightly than anyone.

Your smile is so sweet that I can't help but smile.

It stops my world, even for a little while.

I can't wait the time when my hand is in yours,

To hear you say those 3 little words

I crave so much


There are still no words I can say to describe.

My heart, it aches and my eyes, they cry,

But when we talk, my heart melts...

You always wipe away the tears I cry

And even my fears at night


Even though you aren't here,

And I miss you so much, my dear,

I'll love you to forever and ever

I'll always love you to

Infinity and beyond
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
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@21Neberg
Also, I'd like for you to read this too
I'm not trying to push you on anything I just think it would be cool for you to read it
 
DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
This is called Can't wait
I lay in my bed and think about you.

I love you so much I don't know what to do.

The pain in my heart moves to my eyes.

So far away, yet always so near.

You are the reason I am still here.


I can't wait the times when we can talk

I can't wait the times when we can finally hold hands and walk.

To feel you for real... so close to me and near...

The happiest person in the world is what you would make me.


Your blue eyes shine like a million suns.

You shine more brightly than anyone.

Your smile is so sweet that I can't help but smile.

It stops my world, even for a little while.

I can't wait the time when my hand is in yours,

To hear you say those 3 little words

I crave so much


There are still no words I can say to describe.

My heart, it aches and my eyes, they cry,

But when we talk, my heart melts...

You always wipe away the tears I cry

And even my fears at night


Even though you aren't here,

And I miss you so much, my dear,

I'll love you to forever and ever

I'll always love you to

Infinity and beyond
I don't know how to reply without quoting but yes. This is gorgeous
 
DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
Thank you, I have many others that I have wrote about my wife that I will never send her.
I've got some others relating to that topic if you'd like to hear them?
and wait, did you write that yourself?
 
DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
Yes, I have many more if you would like to read them.
Yes absolutely. I'll post some here too
One, before I realized how my life was turning out and I thought maybe I wouldn't have to commit suicide was
"Happiness looks gorgeous on you"
I still love that saying. I was gonna have it tattooed facing everybody else so that maybe those who can be saved could read it and it would bring them a bit of comfort.
Go ahead and post yours, I'll post mine too
Edit: damn. They're on my old phone. I don't know how to get into photos so ya, I guess that's it :(
 
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La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
This one is called Please Stay

When I think back at what we had,

It makes me unmistakably sad.

That I threw it all away in a fit of rage,

lost your trust and love forever in each page.


When I think back at how much you loved me,

An ocean of joy is all I can see.

And now I look towards the mistakes I have made,

And I can't help but watch each dream fade.


It's my own fault - I am aware,

I lost you because I didn't care.

But what I never tried to do was understand you,

I looked past everything and treated you awful

And for that I am ashamed


Why was I so foolish not to see what lay before my eyes?

I wish I could turn back time to when I once was wise.

I just want you back

Because deep down in my heart there is this special place wherein it you stay.


I wish you'd give me this last chance to fix my mistake,

I pray you'll give me this last chance to make amends for that which I did break the last time

That things end

Please give me one last chance to show you how much I care,

I promise this time I will play it fair.


Because days are so empty and bleak without you,

I feel I'm losing myself in the depths of the undenied few.

And every whisper from the winds carries your name,

Reminding me of the first time that you came.


That you blew me away from that very first day,

And from then on wards I just wanted you to stay,

In my heart and in my life forever,

I never wanted you to leave me ever.


All I'm asking for is just this last chance

For you to stay forever...
 
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