Farewell everyone!

[death unto me]

My time has finally come,but before I leave I want to thank everyone. I've been a lurker here for almost a year before I decided to join last month (never realize that the search button would be this helpful,should've joined earlier). Your words, messages, stories have brought me solace, discussions have brought me new realizations. All I can say is that you're all brave and beautiful souls.

In 8hrs I'll be taking SN. Although I leave with regrets, I decided that it's just not worth it.Things may get better tomorrow, next week, or next month, but it may also get worse. I'm done being stuck in this endless cycle of wanting to get better and self-sabotage. I've destroyed myself for years that despite wanting to get better I just can't do it because; A) I don't know how to. B) I've become to used to these self-destructive habits.

I hope things will get better for all of you and may you find peace, you deserve it.
Be safe!

 

[aminend]

have a peaceful journey bro. I understand u. Im in same situation

 

[Zappfe lover]

May you find peace

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I hope you find the peace you seek, my friend! Sending love and light as you embark on your journey. x

 

[ThreeWords]

I'll be thinking about you today and hope you can find some peace.

 

[Nymph]

Hope you'll feel better

 

[Gladtogo]

Can completely relate. I hope you escape peacefully.

 

[Jumper Geo]

Sorry you can't go on I hope you have studied all the guides to make it as fast and painless as possible, your right the lurkers can't take advantage of the search button, I hope you find peace.

Cheers

Geo

 

[TAW122]

I hope you have a peaceful journey into the unknown.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Good luck in your travels and I hope you have a peaceful journey

 

[MsMaudlin]

Wishing you the best of luck, sending you lots of love and strength too
❤

 

[deadgirlahsatan]

Good luck. Hope everything goes ok.

 

[all_pointless]

Peace be upon you

 

[Ulisses]

Have a peaceful journey .May you find peace.

 

[death unto me]

Thank you for the lovely messages! There's only 2hrs left before I ctb. I hope I don't chicken out, tired of being a coward.

 

[Smudgedlines]

Thank you for the lovely messages! There's only 2hrs left before I ctb. I hope I don't chicken out, tired of being a coward.

Don't worry about chickening out. If you do it may just not be the right time. Go with your instincts

 

[Ulisses]

you are not a coward, if you think it is not an hour you can abort your ctb.

 

[Flump]

 

[death unto me]

If anyone's interested this is my plan; I followed the 48hrs regimen. Unfortunately, I am unable to obtain meto so I resorted to the otc ver that's available here (domperidone).I fasted for 8hrs and stopped drinking water 2hrs before taking sn. As for the drink, I prepared 3 glasses of 50ml water with 20g of sn.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I hope you are still there.
I would like to say goodbye to you personally and wish you a pleasant journey.

See you later on the other side

 

[superkai64]

Wish you very peaceful journey my friend

 

[death unto me]

Just drank my sn couple of minutes ago and I feel a bit uncomfortable, I feel like I'm going to vomit and my heart's beating sooo fast

 

[Living sucks]

I'm sorry ..

 

[watereyes]

Just drank my sn couple of minutes ago and I feel a bit uncomfortable, I feel like I'm going to vomit and my heart's beating sooo fast

im so sorry life has been so horrible to you <3 i wish you a peaceful journey. sleep well.

 

[MsMaudlin]

❤

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Another one is gone
Rest in peace

 

[ThreeWords]

@death unto me are you still with us? How do you feel?

 

[ceelo]

SN got them dropping like flies, all the best cosmic traveler, you just achieved the most courageous act known to man never let this be forgotten.

 

[JigsawFeelin]

bless you, take care

 

[Mgl91]