Discussion Family members who ctb

[escapefromabuse]

My dad ctb in 2011 by OD on phenobarbital. It was a shock to us all but after looking into the situation it's not surprising he made that decision. I wonder how it's affected me and my decision.

Has anyone here had family or close friends that ctb? And what effect, if any, has it had on your choice to ctb?

 

[Lost]

My cousin shot himself at night in his room. My aunt and uncle didn't heard it.

 

[Ghost2211]

It must have been really hard for you to watch your dad pass that way. My heart goes out to you and your family. I can only assume having a parent ctb might normalize suicide for you, so very likely could increase your risk factor.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

My dad ctb in 2011 by OD on phenobarbital. It was a shock to us all but after looking into the situation it's not surprising he made that decision. I wonder how it's affected me and my decision.

Prior to that, had you ever not considered ctb? Or if you had, did you give it less credence or consideration in response to great challenges?

 

[escapefromabuse]

Prior to that, had you ever not considered ctb? Or if you had, did you give it less credence or consideration in response to great challenges?

I thought about it as a teenager and again after my divorce in 2013. And now here I am again, much more serious than ever. I understand how my dad must have felt. The loneliness and hopelessness of the situation. He did what he thought he had to do and so must I.

In my case it's rare to find someone who really understands what I'm up against. It sounds dramatic when I say she wants to destroy me. I've watched her do it to others. She will do it to me.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I thought about it as a teenager and again after my divorce in 2013. And now here I am again, much more serious than ever. I understand how my dad must have felt. The loneliness and hopelessness of the situation. He did what he thought he had to do and so must I.

In my case it's rare to find someone who really understands what I'm up against. It sounds dramatic when I say she wants to destroy me. I've watched her do it to others. She will do it to me.

I've been thinking a lot about that today and am going to respond on your other thread.

 

[Littleone]

My dad ctb in 2011 by OD on phenobarbital. It was a shock to us all but after looking into the situation it's not surprising he made that decision. I wonder how it's affected me and my decision.

Has anyone here had family or close friends that ctb? And what effect, if any, has it had on your choice to ctb?

My dad ctb last year. I never before had considered suicide. Now I realise that I consider it as an option to justify what he did, what drives me nuts since I know the pain I would cause to my beloved ones. At least he didn't know.

 

[Scooby-Doo]

My uncle hung himself. He had been more his self before it happened. So wasn't as worried by him. How wrong I was. It showed he had no drugs or alcohol in his system when he did it.

 

[Tamazi 123]

My mum had an argument with my husband and I in November (I've been ill and suicidal since June and my Dad left her last xmas) and she went home and took her life. Overdosed on promethazine and alcohol from what we know so far

 

[Soul]

Suicide runs in my family, so I grew up knowing it's something people do, always an option, etc. I feel like I've always known I'll off myself one day too.

 

[HadEnough1974]

Suicide runs in my family, so I grew up knowing it's something people do, always an option, etc. I feel like I've always known I'll off myself one day too.

Me too me too!! Since childhood!!

My dad ctb in 2011 by OD on phenobarbital. It was a shock to us all but after looking into the situation it's not surprising he made that decision. I wonder how it's affected me and my decision.

Has anyone here had family or close friends that ctb? And what effect, if any, has it had on your choice to ctb?

My uncle ctb while my mother was pregnant with me. Family never mourned his loss because when I was born, they gave me his name and became overprotective of me as a child and adult. The family dysfunction is immense and runs deep. He fucked up my life before I was even born.

 

[spotlessmind]

My uncle jumped off from his apartment when I was around 5/6-ish.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

Friend caught the bus, one shot one kill, a decade ago.

Another buddy had been trying for a decade: 6 attempts, 1 hospitalization.

 

[Emily_Numb]

My mum had an argument with my husband and I in November (I've been ill and suicidal since June and my Dad left her last xmas) and she went home and took her life. Overdosed on promethazine and alcohol from what we know so far

I'm sorry for the passing of your Mum and the fact you had a difficult conversation with her before she CTB. I don't want to patronise you saying 'she didn't CTV because of you' 'think of the good times' yadda yadda.
Both true but I don't want you to think I'm being insincere. I just wanted to question because I had no idea you should take using antihistamines. (Morbid)

 

[Tamazi 123]

Neither did I but we also won't know what else she took for up to a year or maybe never. She was a nurse so knew what she was doing and I believe she had a plan for a while for if she felt she needed it.