kindalone
Student
- Mar 1, 2023
- 197
I'm having an episode and it's getting difficult to handle my life. I was always a loser and was behind with everything. Started college again at 27 and after 4 years of trying I'm getting kicked out again. Right now the only thing on my mind is cbt.
My family is trying to get me to apply for jobs/apprenticeships but it's difficult to get myself out of that hole. I recently talked to my sister. She's been on edge for a while now and I feel like every conversation we have turns into an argument about something arbitrary. The result is we both leave the conversation annoyed and angry.
I confronted her yesterday and she says she's getting anxious because she sees me in this state and can't handle it. She's worried about my future and is frustrated that I don't do more. I feel guilty for making her feel this way but at the same time I'm annoyed. Why are people so tucking invested in my life? I don't want to be responsible for your feelings. It's burdensome. It's like my life isn't mine. Cbt seems to be the only way I can gain control again. I feel like I'm not capable of anything else. I can't be a functioning human being. I've tried. I've failed.
My family is trying to get me to apply for jobs/apprenticeships but it's difficult to get myself out of that hole. I recently talked to my sister. She's been on edge for a while now and I feel like every conversation we have turns into an argument about something arbitrary. The result is we both leave the conversation annoyed and angry.
I confronted her yesterday and she says she's getting anxious because she sees me in this state and can't handle it. She's worried about my future and is frustrated that I don't do more. I feel guilty for making her feel this way but at the same time I'm annoyed. Why are people so tucking invested in my life? I don't want to be responsible for your feelings. It's burdensome. It's like my life isn't mine. Cbt seems to be the only way I can gain control again. I feel like I'm not capable of anything else. I can't be a functioning human being. I've tried. I've failed.