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maidens
" more dead than alive, I endure it "
- Aug 27, 2023
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why is it that as soon as I get excited for something it's ripped from my hands? why is it that so many opportunities have been stolen from me? I can think of countless examples of this
if I have even the slightest amount of hope whatever I wanted will not happen or I won't get it. the more hopeful I am the more it hurts and if I don't let myself have any hope because I'll just be let down I still feel terrible. if there is a god I am nothing but his plaything and I know he is always laughing at me. even all the things I do get to have or experience come with a sacrifice or something ruins it. it's not fair at all
if I have even the slightest amount of hope whatever I wanted will not happen or I won't get it. the more hopeful I am the more it hurts and if I don't let myself have any hope because I'll just be let down I still feel terrible. if there is a god I am nothing but his plaything and I know he is always laughing at me. even all the things I do get to have or experience come with a sacrifice or something ruins it. it's not fair at all