the energy to do even basic stuff is gone again. no project or activity seems worth doing. music and food no longer has any effect. stuck in a limbo, a trap of comfort but no purpose. i promised to get back to exercising but i cant get going. ever since i became convinced i was gonna die, life has felt like a cruel joke. i spend my days in my room, isolated and not really living. only thing worse than isolation is socializing. idk what happened to me, i had such a promising life at one point but i ruined it and now im at the mercy of a big cruel system that wants me to become another slave. i have nothing to live for, nothing to die for, no purpose, everyday is like the previous and i dont believe in any of their lies.
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hlynn95
Anxious Loner
- Oct 2, 2021
- 44
Ugh! Sounds like me 
I go to the gym for exercise but I feel so lonely and isolated. Not a soul speaks a word to me. I'm depressed as could be. I take Xanax to numb the pain...
I go to the gym for exercise but I feel so lonely and isolated. Not a soul speaks a word to me. I'm depressed as could be. I take Xanax to numb the pain...Historically humanity has been protected from loneliness by their families. However, since the Industrial Revolution, families have been slowly disintegrated until only a shadow of what they were remains.
As a result, what passes for relational connections today is largely superficial. Those that still feel the need for depth and relation are often left with emptiness.
There can be found those for whom the deeper life is still desired. Forums like SS represent places where those driven by pain and hurt come to seek connection. Like awakening from the Matrix, people can find that the expectations they had previously formed were based on false advertising.
Almost like a refugee, those having to find a home in the real world often have difficulty adjusting. Also like refugees, those who have come to the new world often cling together for support. Consider the pioneers who left the old world to make a new home on the Prairie. They lived in sod huts (burrows in the ground). They shared all sorts of difficulty and it forged a closeness that can only be imagined today.
There are those who have come to see reality like cops, emergency room nurses, combat veterans, abuse victims, ex-cons, and even those who are just "different" like those with a high or low IQ, those who are too tall or short, those who are too skinny or fat.
Those who are unable to re-enter the comfort of the Matrix have to find their own way outside of the mainstream. This is not as bleak as it sounds. Real life can be more difficult but also more rewarding.
As a result, what passes for relational connections today is largely superficial. Those that still feel the need for depth and relation are often left with emptiness.
There can be found those for whom the deeper life is still desired. Forums like SS represent places where those driven by pain and hurt come to seek connection. Like awakening from the Matrix, people can find that the expectations they had previously formed were based on false advertising.
Almost like a refugee, those having to find a home in the real world often have difficulty adjusting. Also like refugees, those who have come to the new world often cling together for support. Consider the pioneers who left the old world to make a new home on the Prairie. They lived in sod huts (burrows in the ground). They shared all sorts of difficulty and it forged a closeness that can only be imagined today.
There are those who have come to see reality like cops, emergency room nurses, combat veterans, abuse victims, ex-cons, and even those who are just "different" like those with a high or low IQ, those who are too tall or short, those who are too skinny or fat.
Those who are unable to re-enter the comfort of the Matrix have to find their own way outside of the mainstream. This is not as bleak as it sounds. Real life can be more difficult but also more rewarding.
Ah yesss! The classic feeling of being a black hole of negativity, all try to escape it
Ugh! Sounds like me
Not sure if you are referring to no one talking to you at the gym. I've never really struck up a conversation there. Seems like more of a place to go, did what you came to do whilst listening to music.Ugh! Sounds like me
You may be able to find a workout partner on Facebook.
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