lovelypirategirl

lovelypirategirl

I'm not ok, I'm just good at pretending I am
Mar 22, 2020
38
Hi beautiful people from SS,

I love this site, because it's a safe place that allow us to discuss topics we normally wouldn't be able to do in our "real" lives. That being said, I would like to share with you a thought that sometimes goes through my mind....Most of the time I wish I was dead (I've always been suicidal), but sometimes I'm really curious about how people would react to my death, would they be sad? Would they care? Would they grief? Of course there's no way to know this, unless you fake your own death. In my case sometimes I imagine faking my own death, just to have a glimpse of the reaction of my family and friends and then just CTB.

Have you ever thought something like this? Please share, I would love to read your thoughts and experiences.


Love,


lovelypirategirl
 
  • Like
Reactions: selfhater
Notabadguy

Notabadguy

Mage
Feb 7, 2020
576
Your family you'll be devastated, no doubt about that. It makes me feel guilty for looking into CTB.
 
  • Like
Reactions: lovelypirategirl and Sensei
selfhater

selfhater

Experienced
Mar 1, 2020
222
omg i thought i was the only one who do this!!! didn't fake my death to my family cuz i live with them but to others and i always fake i'm dead cuz i feel extremely ashamed for existing when i'm supposed to be dead for long time:(
 
  • Like
Reactions: lovelypirategirl
one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
3,455
For me. No i haven't thought about it. But now that you bring that up. I would never want to put people through that. I've seen to many people pass in my life. I've shared the sorry and grief. To put anyone through that twice, i just can't imagine.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Sensei, Brink and GoodPersonEffed
GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,727
It's one thing to fantasize about it, another to actually do it.
 
  • Like
Reactions: lovelypirategirl and Sensei
C

calendulo

Enlightened
Jun 13, 2019
1,016
Time ago I started an one year catalepsy intensive course, but I did not pass the final exam. I never was a lucky guy.
Sadly, I had to get a barbiturate.
 

Similar threads