Venting Failikg partial

[FailureToAll]

I've read the guides. Watched the videos. Some ppl make it look so easy. So why am I failing so hard. Most of the times I try I can't seem to get the right position to pass out. But even when I do start to black out and my body starts to feel weird I get up bcuz I'm scared. It seems like ppl pass out so quick but when I try even when I feel like I'll pass out it feels like it's taking forever. I just want to lose consciousness before I have time to get up. I'm so fucking tired. If I don't kms I have to get up in 4 hours. My head hurts my neck hurts. I'll I'm doing is crying about being a failure. I'm frustrated. I need to die. Idk what I'm going to do if I can't do it this method. No other methods seem achievable for me. This should be my best option so why why why am I still not able to do it. I need to die I need it to be tonight. I can't face the future. I can't face the my own mistakes. I have ruined my life. Time is running out before my mistakes catch up and I have to take accountability. I can't stand my family knowing how much I fucked up. I need need need to die. I wish someone would kill me so badly

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel and painful to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from all the suffering, I hope that you find peace eventually.

 

[FailureToAll]

It's so cruel and painful to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from all the suffering, I hope that you find peace eventually.

Yeah it is. Thank you <3

 

[Asleepatlast]

I'm confused by this too. I've also seen videos that make it look easy. I'm not sure. I think I could see myself overthinking it. If that's possible. It's the method I would choose except I'm afraid I'll mess it up yet people make it look so easy in videos.