Failed heroin OD

[knowledgeseeking]

About a month back I did my research and ordered some heroin with the intent to OD and finally decided to do it last Saturday.

I prepared the heroin (1.5 grams) as instructed and loaded it in a syringe. Went and laid in my bed and inserted the needle in the vein in the crook of my elbow, pulled back to make sure i was in the vein and emptied the entire syringe in myself.

Immediately I felt this intense rush and in said "this is going to work". I laid down at peace with dying and then I could tell things were going wrong. My heart started beating harder than I thought and body went numb. I thought maybe I was going to have a heart attach which wasn't ideal but if that is what was happening, I accepted it.

I ended up waking the next morning with what felt like an alcohol hangover and intense emotional pain. Since then I have felt nothing but despair.

I can't believe that didn't work and still don't know where it went wrong.

 

[Eriktf]

OD is just really unreliable...
Woken up after what should be an od more time then I can count

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I can't believe that didn't work and still don't know where it went wrong.

First of all, I'm sorry you have to go through this. Failing an attempt is so awful, but don't be too hard on yourself

What went wrong? Most likely, the heroin you had wasn't pure 1.5g of heroin, rather it was cut with other shit. Did you test it for its purity?

 

[LastNite]

Im sorry that happened to you. Please try your best to lay off the idea of suicide for a while and dont think much about what happened to you. It's best for you to not remember the experience so you dont get addicted. Opioid ODs arent predictable especially heroin which is often cut or simply impure like Praestat said.
If you were to ever attempt again I wouldnt risk doing it again with opioids even with stronger ones. The risk of addiction is huge and you cant simply ignore it.

 

[MephiticShadow]

Are you sure it was 1 and a half grams??? I really can't picture that much heroin fitting in one syringe.....
Unless it was a 10ml syringe?

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sorry for your pain, please be kind to yourself. Sending love.

 

[Forveleth]

I am sorry it did not work for you. The emotional low after heroin is grueling and is often why people can not quit it. I hope you can ride it out.

Did you test your heroin at all? Even if it was pure, you might have hit the genetic lottery so to speak and have a natural resistance to opioids.

I have woken up after a failed attempt and it is a horrible feeling. I am sorry.

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I am sorry it did not work for you. The emotional low after heroin is grueling and is often why people can not quit it. I hope you can ride it out.

Did you test your heroin at all? Even if it was pure, you might have hit the genetic lottery so to speak and have a natural resistance to opioids.

I have woken up after a failed attempt and it is a horrible feeling. I am sorry.

There isn't any great options for testing in TX. It's even illegal to get some harm reduction supplies like fent test stripes. I agree with the might have hit the genetic lottery. I have tried some months or even a year ago with oxy and survived a what would be lethal to most dose. Of course I enter the opioid market after fent has been more widely removed in the states.