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dominodux
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- Nov 11, 2019
- 55
My first CTB attempt a year ago, due heavy depression state, miserably failed.
At that time i've got a Helium tank from ebay and a aerosol kit, i connected the tank via a transparent tube to the aerosol mask, using some silicon glue to fix the tube to the mask.
I was laying in bed and opened the can valve and start breathing the helium, i've got inconscious just after 30 seconds, i remember the sensation, was not umpleasant at all i remember i felt dizzy then i had a sort of wake attention for more 20 seconds, but felt unable to react... i didnt feel any nausea or pain, and then i become unconscious. That was almost midnight.
I woke up later at 5 am, with a horrible headache, i was totally confused and was unable to get out of the bed for more 3 hours till 8am.
In the morning i got finally out of bed, but legs was barely able to stand, still lot of confusion and a general feeling of tiredness. Also my vision was very poor, and the "proportions" of all the stuff around me was very distorted.. i dont know how to explain this well in english. In the next hours i started to recover, but it took me at least more 48 hours to be able to get out again in middle of people.
Today after one year i'm quite sure that i've got some permanent damage from that experience, my vision is very poor in night i barely see things around, in day is quite ok but i think my miopia increased a lot. Also i'm quite difficult in walking, due to easy loss of balance.. but it changes time by time, i'm quite sure that i've damaged myself in that trial and i still cant understand what went wrong, so i'm seeking for new at reliable way to ctb and i promised myself i wont try again till i find something reliable 100%.
I've seeking around for N, but i've seen that is very difficult and risky to get, also it can be altered by other chemicals or even expired, so i declined that choice.
I've read aroung about SN, but i'm not convinced also because who sell it, do no store it properly it can easy become Nitrate and lost his reliability.
In the end i'm am thinking about something very atipical, like buying and inflatable boat and going with it in the middle of sea, probably in night, so far that would be quite impossible to go back, expecially if i rip the boat and make it sink.. the feat being discovered by coast guard is always in my mind, but i would say that the image of someone finding me in the sea, swollen like a balloon just make me to desist.
So i am open to suggestion.
At that time i've got a Helium tank from ebay and a aerosol kit, i connected the tank via a transparent tube to the aerosol mask, using some silicon glue to fix the tube to the mask.
I was laying in bed and opened the can valve and start breathing the helium, i've got inconscious just after 30 seconds, i remember the sensation, was not umpleasant at all i remember i felt dizzy then i had a sort of wake attention for more 20 seconds, but felt unable to react... i didnt feel any nausea or pain, and then i become unconscious. That was almost midnight.
I woke up later at 5 am, with a horrible headache, i was totally confused and was unable to get out of the bed for more 3 hours till 8am.
In the morning i got finally out of bed, but legs was barely able to stand, still lot of confusion and a general feeling of tiredness. Also my vision was very poor, and the "proportions" of all the stuff around me was very distorted.. i dont know how to explain this well in english. In the next hours i started to recover, but it took me at least more 48 hours to be able to get out again in middle of people.
Today after one year i'm quite sure that i've got some permanent damage from that experience, my vision is very poor in night i barely see things around, in day is quite ok but i think my miopia increased a lot. Also i'm quite difficult in walking, due to easy loss of balance.. but it changes time by time, i'm quite sure that i've damaged myself in that trial and i still cant understand what went wrong, so i'm seeking for new at reliable way to ctb and i promised myself i wont try again till i find something reliable 100%.
I've seeking around for N, but i've seen that is very difficult and risky to get, also it can be altered by other chemicals or even expired, so i declined that choice.
I've read aroung about SN, but i'm not convinced also because who sell it, do no store it properly it can easy become Nitrate and lost his reliability.
In the end i'm am thinking about something very atipical, like buying and inflatable boat and going with it in the middle of sea, probably in night, so far that would be quite impossible to go back, expecially if i rip the boat and make it sink.. the feat being discovered by coast guard is always in my mind, but i would say that the image of someone finding me in the sea, swollen like a balloon just make me to desist.
So i am open to suggestion.