
LingeringUnreal
dumb of ass
- Dec 14, 2021
- 118
Hey there, all. It's been a minute. Cw for discussion of failed suicide, though I guess the title makes that obvious.
To have a short recap: I planned to CTB via SN in late February. I ordered 100mg of SN and split 25mg into one water bottle and another 25mg in a different water bottle as assurance. Put on my playlist, had fasted for 2 days - but can you believe this bitch totally forgot any sort of antiemetic? I puked so fucking much after like 2 sips and I guess I panicked and just tossed everything as soon as I stopped being in agony long enough, including my remaining SN.
Well, I didn't go to the hospital or anything. After taking some sleeping meds and nervously laying down, I didn't notice many negative effects the next day. Except for missing SN, which I'm still kicking myself over. And that's pretty much that. Will I try again? Maybe, but less stupidly next time. Please remember the antiemetic, it's critical to the method.
Not sure how much I'll continue updating here, but wanted to let you all know about this little misadventure.
E: also i cant remember if its mg or just grams, it was a hefty amount so i might have had Too Much starting out.
To have a short recap: I planned to CTB via SN in late February. I ordered 100mg of SN and split 25mg into one water bottle and another 25mg in a different water bottle as assurance. Put on my playlist, had fasted for 2 days - but can you believe this bitch totally forgot any sort of antiemetic? I puked so fucking much after like 2 sips and I guess I panicked and just tossed everything as soon as I stopped being in agony long enough, including my remaining SN.
Well, I didn't go to the hospital or anything. After taking some sleeping meds and nervously laying down, I didn't notice many negative effects the next day. Except for missing SN, which I'm still kicking myself over. And that's pretty much that. Will I try again? Maybe, but less stupidly next time. Please remember the antiemetic, it's critical to the method.
Not sure how much I'll continue updating here, but wanted to let you all know about this little misadventure.
E: also i cant remember if its mg or just grams, it was a hefty amount so i might have had Too Much starting out.
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