Failed attempt psychological aftermath

[setianism]

As the title says, what sort of psychological "scars" has a failed attempt left on your brain?

For me it's not that serious but I can't smell any alcoholic drink without feeling sick from the stomach and depression exponentially aggravated

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I can't take take certain pills without gagging. Even when I just look at it, it makes me feel sick.

 

[RacilyDank]

I wake up every day thinking "why did I pass out first? How could I have got so close and yet be so far"

Also a little bit scared if I'm honest that I got so close.

I know past 'well me' would be fucking distraught I'd gone so far.

 

[Made4TV]

Whenever I drive by the place I attempted 20 years ago, it always grabs me a little. The regret of fucking it up. Fortunately I don't live close to there anymore. The other bad thing is feeling like I somehow have to prove to people that I was serious, that it wasn't just a cry for help.