Failed again/xanax help

[whyidon'tknow]

Told myself I would ctb this weekend by hanging yet here I am.

I hate this. Not like my mind is coming up with reasons to stay, it just gets me to stop. I truly do not want to be here and do not want to get better.

I have a lead on some xanax and heard that it can overcome SI.

Does anyone have any experience using xanax to overcome SI? Any tips?

Love and kindness.

 

[Thorn]

Have you ever taken pregabalin? With no tolerance, it has an interesting effect that makes you not give a flying f about anything, plus a full body anesthesia. I almost cut my finger off, and felt nothing. The whole world is so far away, that you would need a telescope to see your own nose.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Have you ever taken pregabalin? With no tolerance, it has an interesting effect that makes you not give a flying f about anything, plus a full body anesthesia. I almost cut my finger off, and felt nothing. The whole world is so far away, that you would need a telescope to see your own nose.

No, is that legal to get? I am in Canada

 

[TimeToDie]

No, is that legal to get? I am in Canada

Ask your doc for a prescription for it. Lyrica (pregabalin) can be used to treat generalized anxiety, it's approved for GAD in Europe. My experience with Lyrica is that it just made me stumble as very high dosage (a number of times higher than max recommended dose), but I found it to have zero effect on mental function or anxiety. Given that it's not a controlled substance, docs tend to be very willing to prescribe it.

 

[Thorn]

It's a widely prescribed painkiller, also for some mental issues, the old version of it was Gabapentin. In the U.S., the name is Lyrica. After the patent expired, everyone started making it. You would need a prescription, but with a good doctor, it should not be a problem, if you specifically ask for it.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I'll see potentially. I am for sure getting xanax tonight tho. Want to try that

 

[1234dave]

I'd recommend cocaine or an amphetamine of some sort, obviously harder to come by.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I'd recommend cocaine or an amphetamine of some sort, obviously harder to come by.

I can get coke.

How does it help though?

 

[TimeToDie]

I'd recommend cocaine or an amphetamine of some sort, obviously harder to come by.

Docs sure seem eager to throw Adderall at me. I might have to take a big dose and see if that inspires me to take action. I've only used a few tablets in all of 2019. Probably won't help in my case since amphetamine boosts my mood & calms me, such that existing another day seems like a reasonable option.

 

[1234dave]

You won't care about anything but yourself

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I appreciate all the recommendations.

I'm still looking for info specifically on xanax and SI

Love and kindness

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Bumpity bump bump

 

[Throwaway9787]

I can get coke.

How does it help though?

Coke will make you feel happy lol

 

[1234dave]

Coke will make you feel happy lol

Not necessarily. It will give you confidence in your thoughts. Why do almost all celebrity suicides have cocaine and alcohol in their bodies... To get them over the si.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Not necessarily. It will give you confidence in your thoughts. Why do almost all celebrity suicides have cocaine and alcohol in their bodies... To get them over the si.

Yeah I heard both things, guess it depends on the person

 

[Throwaway9787]

Not necessarily. It will give you confidence in your thoughts. Why do almost all celebrity suicides have cocaine and alcohol in their bodies... To get them over the si.

Have you ever done amphetamine, its literally used as an off label treatment for treatment resistant depression. You can find the studies on google. As for coke, coke and alcohol is a different thing. Together they form a different drug in the liver. And having taken coke numerous times it just made feel very nice. Not suicidial. If youre looking to get over SI its booze. Liquor by yourself will make anyone disinhibted and sad :/

 

[Theon]

Xanax will calm you down though I don't know if it will take away the SI.

 

[Ruffian]

Have you ever done amphetamine, its literally used as an off label treatment for treatment resistant depression. You can find the studies on google. As for coke, coke and alcohol is a different thing. Together they form a different drug in the liver. And having taken coke numerous times it just made feel very nice. Not suicidial. If youre looking to get over SI its booze. Liquor by yourself will make anyone disinhibted and sad :/

What kind of drug do they form? I know many people mix cocaine and alcohol, but I really didn't drink that often, and I always thought it would ruin an expensive coke high. I'm a little sad I may never get to find out. I'm not sure taking any drug to steady your nerves for some methods is a great idea. They tend to make people feel very good (Xanax is up there for a lot of people) and that could make you TOO chill and decide life is worth living. Or if too chill, making a mistake with a decent method.

 

[Throwaway9787]

What kind of drug do they form? I know many people mix cocaine and alcohol, but I really didn't drink that often, and I always thought it would ruin an expensive coke high. I'm a little sad I may never get to find out. I'm not sure taking any drug to steady your nerves for some methods is a great idea. They tend to make people feel very good (Xanax is up there for a lot of people) and that could make you TOO chill and decide life is worth living. Or if too chill, making a mistake with a decent method.

Cocethylene

 

[Ruffian]

Cocethylene

Yes, I'm officially sad.