Gone soon

Gone soon

Guy who likes wearing womens' clothes
Jun 11, 2024
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I wanted to finally hang myself, but once more I didn't find the courage to get through with it. I'm feeling ashamed and that's why I didn't post anything the last weeks. I know, my fate is to die, rather sooner than later. I wish I wouldn't be such a coward. I'll keep trying until I finally succeed
 
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finishLana

finishLana

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Dec 12, 2021
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It is a damn terrifying thing to do and despite how bad you feel there's survival instinct to fight with. Im sorry you are feeling this way and you are not a coward, ctb is scary. I wish you to find peace the way you want
 
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passer-by

passer-by

Home is elsewhere
Oct 7, 2024
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I know this way too well. But I believe that whatever is meant to happen will happen eventually. There's more forces ar play than we see. We'll reach the finish line🙏 It's going to be ok ❤️
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
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You aren't a coward. SI is difficult to overcome, you may also not be ready and that's okay. If you need time to think about things you should take it. You don't need to rush into this. There's nothing shameful about not cbting, you're here another day and maybe that's a chance at something more. Whatever happens, whatever you choose, I hope you find what you're looking for and I hope that it's peaceful
 
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dinosavr

dinosavr

and if i’m turning blue, please, don’t save me 🌛
Dec 14, 2023
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It's called a human being, not a coward. I know it can be really frustrating though but there's no reason to blame yourself.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I personally don't believe one is cowardly, suicide is really difficult to me after all, I wish it's straightforward to just cease existing in peace. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
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We live in a pro-life culture, it's not easy to kill yourself. This culture generates fear of death, but so do friends, our hobbies and many other things. I have never believed in the survival instinct. Just think of the Seppuku of the Samurai, it was not only honorable but also a privilege. But in what context did the Samurai live to develop this thought? And the Eunuchs of the forbidden city? Eunuchs spontaneously showed up to be castrated, and it was considered a great privilege. They knew they were risking their lives (there were many deaths) and yet there were so many volunteers. Where was the survival instinct? Modern-day psychoanalysis itself defines some types of suicide as an egoic act. A selfish act that surpasses the presumed survival instinct. I have no intention of going back to arguing about the existence of an instinct. What interests me instead is to build around myself that environment conducive to a clear and peaceful exit. In my opinion we cannot expect to find courage one day through divine action. Courage must be built over time. And it doesn't mean that it's about courage, perhaps it's much simpler than it may seem. Simple does not mean easy. The change starts from us.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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Come on, give yourself a break!!
It takes a lot just to attempt.
You just haven't "succeeded yet"🤗🌹💔
 
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been__ready

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Nov 25, 2024
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We live in a pro-life culture, it's not easy to kill yourself. This culture generates fear of death, but so do friends, our hobbies and many other things. I have never believed in the survival instinct. Just think of the Seppuku of the Samurai, it was not only honorable but also a privilege. But in what context did the Samurai live to develop this thought? And the Eunuchs of the forbidden city? Eunuchs spontaneously showed up to be castrated, and it was considered a great privilege. They knew they were risking their lives (there were many deaths) and yet there were so many volunteers. Where was the survival instinct? Modern-day psychoanalysis itself defines some types of suicide as an egoic act. A selfish act that surpasses the presumed survival instinct. I have no intention of going back to arguing about the existence of an instinct. What interests me instead is to build around myself that environment conducive to a clear and peaceful exit. In my opinion we cannot expect to find courage one day through divine action. Courage must be built over time. And it doesn't mean that it's about courage, perhaps it's much simpler than it may seem. Simple does not mean easy. The change starts from us.
Very well said 🙏🏻
Please have compassion for yourself.

We are going against an eternity of evolution trying to CTB.. we were designed to avoid self-harm with every fabric of our being...

If it's any consolation -
I just spent an entire week trying to CTB - twice a day I would visit the site but just couldn't do it - and I traveled half way across the country to boot! Now I'm headed home to regroup and try and find another more peaceful way to go.

SN is very involved but worth a try I think.

Take some time to regroup before you try again.
 
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ForestGhost

ForestGhost

The ocean washed over your grave
Aug 25, 2024
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Hey, I remember reading your goodbye thread when you posted it. I always wondered what happened to you. Just wanted to let you know that you've been in my thoughts, I guess. And I definitely don't think you're a failure or coward in any sense of the word. ♥️
 
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