Anyone else in unbearable torture over ruining their own lives? Like, ruined beyond repair? For me, it's not getting early enough treatment for my undiagnosed health condition and destroying my body and mind. Can't stop replaying moments in my past where I could have asked more questions or did things differently, like PTSD flashbacks that wake me up in the middle of the night wanting to throw up.
Yea I aborted all my kids 
,student loan debt, I seem to ruin all relationships, just ready to be out of this place. Yea tons of regrets. My life is one giant regret.
,student loan debt, I seem to ruin all relationships, just ready to be out of this place. Yea tons of regrets. My life is one giant regret.
Theresa Riot
Member
- Apr 5, 2020
- 38
Same, I'm nothing but regrets. My biggest regret is that I didn't kill myself before I did all the other horrible and stupid things. I wish I could go back so badly. I want to go back to when I was 14 and just do it. There are so many regrets I could have avoided.
Yea I should have done it young because I knew I was unstable at the core level. I knew my life would only get worse even as I barely graduated high school.
Theresa Riot
Member
- Apr 5, 2020
- 38
Yeah I feel the same. I've known since I was about six that I would eventually kill myself. Only a matter of time. I've just waited far longer than I should have.
Mr.Mediocre
Member
- Jun 25, 2020
- 36
I wish I had a life to start with
Eternal Pessimist
Student
- Oct 16, 2019
- 173
I spend a lot of time thinking about the life I could have had if things had gone differently. Some of the bad things in my life were always outside of my control, but some were definitely my mistakes. Sometimes it's just maddening that I will never know how things would have turned out had I chosen differently. Although I guess knowing for sure that I could have had a good life would be even worse. At least now I can tell myself that things might have not worked out anyway, even if I had made the right choices.
Bct
Disqualified from Being Human
- Apr 20, 2020
- 419
My life is full of regrets & failures. I don't think it's worth to continue it.
I know now (when it's too late) that I had a shot at a good life. Unfortunately, I let my demons cloud my judgment when I was young and it's pure fucking torture knowing how easily my problems could have been prevented.
I've regretted everything I did and didn't do. I torture myself all the time thinking of them
