Extreme low moods and suicidal then it goes away for a bit?

[Thefuture]

Can anyone else relate? I will have no hope the world around me feels dark and scary. I feel paranoid. Then a week later maybe I'll start to feel okay. Even though nothings changed. Like I'm in a dream or something. It might be the painkillers

 

[idontknow42]

Yes, this is literally me. Whenever I feel 'okay', even though nothing has changed, I can't enjoy the moment because I know it will come to an end very soon. The 'okay' feeling only lasts maximum of a day or two, then I'm back to feeling like shit.

It's a cruel cycle, and there's nothing I can do about it.

I've been thinking, could it be bipolar, and something that could actually be treated by meds? It is totally impossible to get better when your mood is changing extremes constantly without anything happening. Please tell me what you think

 

[Life_and_Death]

It is totally impossible to get better when your mood is changing extremes constantly without anything happening. Please tell me what you think

Bpd so not the same but roughly the same idea as bipolar (which honestly reading the op was the first thing that came to mind). Depending on your symptoms, medication may help. I'm on buspar and without it I'd probably be completely, can't be helped insane. It doesn't help with the mood swings but it makes things quieter and way easier to handle. The mood swings themselves, dbt was specifically created for bpd. Learning how to cope with the emotions is probably the best way to deal with it. From a personal opinion and research.

 

[synthie]

It's the same for me, I think it's not unusual for moods to come in waves. I just dissociate in between triggering events and do anything I can to not think about it. It's like watching life from a third person perspective, like a movie.

 

[lili]

It happens to me a lot. That's why it doesn't work for me to plan so way ahead of time to CBT because my mood will probably shift completely. I go from extreme depression of my socially isolating myself (I haven't left my house in two weeks) to full workaholic and wanting to socialize all the time, drugs and partying.

I also see my weight gain fluctuating. When I'm depressed I gain a lot of weight because I eat a lot and when I'm the opposite I don't eat at all. Can spend days without eating and feel fine so I loose all the weight I gained while depressed.

The whole thing is really exhausting and I'm really tired of this fluctuation. It's mentally draining and I feel really stupid/silly for being such an inconsistent person.