Venting Experiremented with partial hanging for the first time, feeling lost and alone

[imperfectcircle]

I apologize if this is not the right place for this, I am new here and I am not the best at traversing online forums. I just have no one I feel like I can go to about this in my everyday life. I did research on partial/full hanging and at the moment it feels like the method I would use if I were to ctb. I tried making myself pass out by holding my carotid artery, but I had no luck besides my head feeling full of pressure. Then I experimented with a belt and door handle, still didn't pass out but it was definetely an experience. I don't even really know what I'm hoping for posting this, I guess I just feel completely alone and my feelings are mixed about experimentation like this. I feel as though I am nothing at all. Of course I cannot even hang myself right, haha! If anyone wants to say anything at all, that'd be swell. It feels pretty suffocating feeling like this with no one to speak to about it.

 

[nowizard]

hi, i'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling alone in this. i promise you're not. the mixed feelings about it are totally valid, if hanging is your preferred method, trying it out is a good step.
are you sure you were holding the carotid artery? you should see your vision going black instead of only pressure in the head. i recommend scrolling through the night night thread, i found good explanations in good detail regarding the artery, especially in the replies, that can maybe help with partial hanging aswell..?

all in all i hope you find a way to feel better, stranger, whatever way that may be.

 

[imperfectcircle]

I did look through the night night thread, and it does look appealing. I'm not really sure why I'm having so much trouble with finding the right spot. I suppose I have to keep practicing. I appreciate your reply, its nice knowing that someone knows what I'm thinking. Thank you stranger.