Existence is torment.

[pauly369]

I never asked for any of this shit : this thing called life.
I dont even know where I really come from, wether I was made by some God or a fucking alien, or wether Im part of some fucked - up cosmic accident.
This body of mine isnt really me anyway because its just a collection of water and chemicals and operates mostly of its own free will.
I find consciousness disturbing - what the fuck is consciousness anyway ?
I have no purpose than to suffer in this meat prison body with a mind that is broken.
Im rambling I know, but I just want to die now so fucking very badly.

 

[Halfhourdays]

Well put: Existence is torment. I didn't ask to be born.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

agree. i'm just chemical reactions. i'm also a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.

there is no purpose , no intelligent design of this torture chamber they call a brain and human body.

all life including humans descended from a single ancestor a cell .

A cell evolved 4 bilion years ago, previously the chemical precursors to this cell evolved . it was all an accident of chemistry , a very horrifying accident that causes all this sufffering. 1.6 million humans attempt suicide per year in the U.S. alone showing how bad life is .

All Life on Earth Comes From One Single Ancestor. And It's So Much Older Than We Thought.

Scientists have pushed back LUCA’s origin by hundreds of millions of years.

www.popularmechanics.com

brand new research shows the much glorified human brain can think at only 10 bits per second. computers , ai etc now can process at gigabits per second a bilion times faster already and improving rapidly . that's why we can only think about 1 thing at a time . compare this to ai which can read 80,000 words per minute . ai will surpass humans in all ways soon

The Human Brain Operates at a Stunningly Slow Pace

The brain is sometimes called the most complex machine in the known universe. But the thoughts that it outputs putter along at a trifling 10 bits per second, the pace of a conversation

www.scientificamerican.com

Caltech Scientists Have Quantified the Speed of Human Thought

Caltech researchers found that humans think at 10 bits per second, far slower than the billion bits per second gathered by sensory systems. This limitation, rooted in evolutionary navigation systems, explains why we process one thought at a time.

www.technologynetworks.com

The unbearable slowness of being: Why do we live at 10 bits/s?

This article is about the neural conundrum behind the slowness of human behavior. The information throughput of a human being is about 10 bits/s. In c…

www.sciencedirect.com

 

[pauly369]

agree. i'm just chemical reactions. i'm also a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain.

there is no purpose , no intelligent design of this torture chamber they call a brain and human body.

A cell evolved 4 bilion years ago, previously the chemical precursors to this cell evolved . it was all an accident of chemistry , a very horrifying accident that causes all this sufffering. 1.6 million humans attempt suicide per year in the U.S. alone showing how bad life is .

All Life on Earth Comes From One Single Ancestor. And It's So Much Older Than We Thought.

Scientists have pushed back LUCA’s origin by hundreds of millions of years.

www.popularmechanics.com

Absolutely agree.
I dont see any other rational explanation for it all, other than its just one big chemical freakshow.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also find it so torturous to exist, all I personally hope for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence truly does feel like the most cruel, terrible tragic mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I hope you find peace.