Venting Existence is an prison

[FuneralCry]

I am looking forward to death. I honestly think I have been mildly depressed my entire life which is probably linked to being autistic. Recently I have been dealing with physical health problems which have taken away my quality of life. I just feel like my soul just doesn't belong trapped in this body and is in need of being laid to rest. I have an very overactive mind and feel like death is the only way to be free from my thoughts.
living is just pointless, we only exist just to die anyway.
I hope everyone here finds peace.

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate so much to your words.

I've been depressed, stressed and suicidal since I was 12. My high school made my life hell.

To make matters worse, after my 25s I started to gain a lot of weight and now that I'm 33 and too lazy to work out, I hate looking at myself in the mirror. Sure, I can change things but finding the strength to do it is almost impossible.

I'm looking forward to death too and. Also, Iwould like to have some answers. Why existing in first place if we're all bound to die? How can something come from nothing? This universe is ridiculous.

 

[homesick28]

I came out of a really dark period and never felt more myself. I had endless energy and life was so beautiful, and I was functioning on a high level. Yet, in the background I guess I was psychotic talking to different celestial beings. I felt so enlightened and at peace with myself. I didn't know souls I was talking to, and angels should have been a red flag. I was shot at with guns and my toxic roommate started stealing from me during covid, and eventually he OD'd on fentynal. The trauma from that lead to the deepest fall from grace. I never thought I could fall so far from the cloud I was on. But whatever fantasy world I was living in crashed into this one and Im just a pacing corpse now, wondering wtf happened. AND IT IS SUCH FUCKING TORTURE to not be able to function the way you once did, To see those dreams crushed because Ill never be able to acheive anything now. Im so fucked up and useless. I just want to go back to being psychotic because I never felt more myself and capable. Here I am in this prison day in and day out and there's nothing I can do to change it. NOTHING. And all I get to think about everyday is how I fucked it all up. Nothing works like it used to. It is unbareable torture.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I was just about to comment how this is a refreshingly humanizing post from FC, and then I realized it was written three years ago.

 

[sserafim]

It is. Earth is literally a prison planet. The worst thing is that none of us could consent to existence beforehand, it was forced upon all of us

 

[Homo erectus]

I fear that death might not be an end. But if I had to relive this or a similar life, so be it. What can I do?

 

[sserafim]

I fear that death might not be an end. But if I had to relive this or a similar life, so be it. What can I do?

Wdym? Like reincarnation? Btw, have you heard about quantum immortality?

 

[Homo erectus]

Wdym? Like reincarnation? Btw, have you heard about quantum immortality?

Sorry. I really messed things up as usually. I don't know what I've done. Let me recap: I think somehow some people have to clean up this mess. Death is probably not an end. It is the purpose of life to wind up this world gracefully if possible. What is quantum immortality?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

PLEASE PRETEND THIS IS NEW ​

If not then the idea is simply for other users to see a person not a spambot.

Yeah, and it's almost as if having to put up with years of abuse & suicidal ideation can change, exhaust and depress a person. Oh wait...

I'm sorry for your suffering OP.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Here as well, keeping it alive

 

[Captive_Mind515]

I was just about to comment how this is a refreshingly humanizing post from FC, and then I realized it was written three years ago.

It's old, but you're late!

 

[iloverachel]

I feel the same my friend