f1lth
fleabag
- Jul 9, 2023
- 60
im drinking a lot recently to fight off panic attacks and just how shit everything is and i dont think anyone has noticed or cares. Everyone has their own things to worry about so i dont want to make things harder by telling people, the one person i did tell cant help me. i plan to hang myself with rock climbing rope, so it doesnt snap or anything (i already have a lot of these ropes, i know theyre expensive). im hoping to go on the 10th of January but part of me still wishes something would change or that someone would care. Realistically i know thats silly, i have people who care about me but that cant fix this or me. My family and loved ones cant stop me, having people who care or try to stop me would (i think) just make things worse. I dont know. I hope this makes sense
