Venting Everything is fine but i really want to end it all.

[Sangriaaa]

I recently got into university, i have an (maybe) good job, everything its just kind of fine and at his place but im not really happy about it, there is something that wants to make me end it all without thinking anything more, maybe im just tired, i sleep 2-3 hours or maybe im thinking really like real idk. Im thinking about OD on benzos but my mom found it, my mom maybe thinks about what i can think, i mean, my life its not that bad for wanting to just end it so idk, and im thinking about relapsing on SH but i dont even have time for that lmao