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So I was busy getting ready to die-stopped paying rent stopped paying my credit card stopped brushing my teeth. Had support and private messages from people who never communicated before. Then I had the hospice team come to my house 🏠 at dinner time so I was eating.
This nurse took an adversarial tack. You can live more than six months. I never claimed I wasn't only that my doctor approved hospice and VSED. She said you're eating you're joking I said I deserve peace and dignity. I said I tried VSED on my own but I could only make it to day five. She said your body isn't ready to die. I said my body would eat sugar five times a day and have non stop sex with women. My mind knows I have had enough. Then because of her poisoning the well the doctor of the hospice said it was a no go.
I told my supporters what was going on. I left a message with a hospice in Vermont. Someone said Vermont isn't going to help you. In Belgium they would help me based on mental illness alone. It would be glorious and humane. Any health care provider I talk to my mother says "she's just depressed." (I have aggressive MS, a neoplasm on my colon, bipolar disorder.) My mother will tell people my colon has a polyp. She will tell people I am not in physical pain. She's not my guardian or power of attorney.
We are in Florida. I hate it. I want to go home to Philadelphia. There are pools and lakes around. ChatGPT says it would be hard but you could die aspirating water. But there isn't a lot of support for this method. What can I do??
 
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hey i just caught up on your story. there are no words for what you've been thru.
just wondering how things are now with everything. i know youve not been online for a bit
 

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