I have so many painful memories that replay in my mind and it's just unending. I'm trying to make it stop. I even tried ligature strangulation and I can't seem to find my carotid artery and when I tied the knot, I couldn't get it off. I almost had to out myself to my mom, who I live with, who would see the shoelace around my neck. My point is there are so many memories that just drift into my mind and make me cry. I really wish I had a gun. I want to put a bullet through my brain and finally end this tragic, tragic life
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