Venting everything always crumbles

[willitpass]

i'm back again. i bet no one is surprised. i leave when i get better and come back when everything falls to shit. i had a little bit of a mental break last night and ended up spamming my boyfriend with texts while freaking out. i shouldn't have done it. he waited an hour to respond and when he did he said "i can't help you when you don't even want it. talk to your therapist". now everything feels weird between us. i feel awful. i shouldn't have put him in that position. it's not fair for him. i'm so stressed. i don't know what to do. everything in my world is collapsing once again. this constant up and down is exhausting. i can never seem to find my footing
i have only a few dollars in my bank account and owe over $1000. i'm practically failing my classes and finals are in just a few days. i've destroyed my relationship. i never hang out with friends. i have nothing

 

[FuneralCry]

It is painful when things just get worse. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I'm sorry you are going through this. I wish you the best.

 

[Darkover]

Existential Bummer

 

[healthrecovery]

I agree why the fuck does everything always crumble