FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
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In the pandemic most people who died were good people and had so much to live for . The doctors, nurses, care home staff , paramdics, police officers and other front line workers were married, had children, knew their purpose in life
Everyday i see covid19 death figures and I wish it was me.

Why i am alive and healthy when i dont even deserve it. I dont know my purpose in life and have absolutely nothing good going for me.

I should have died from covid19 everyday i wish the virus killed me.
 
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justanotherstar

justanotherstar

Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
Nov 23, 2020
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I hear you FireFox, I could have written this myself
 
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NormaJeane

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Mar 24, 2021
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I live alone and did not meet many people the last year, so I suppose that is why I never got sick in covid-19. But it is not certain that you die of covid-19, some people only become chronically ill. It is not strange that healthcare personnel become infected when they work so near sick people. I read on the Internet about a cat that became ill with coronavirus and was killed by the veterinary.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Sorry to hear you're feeling like this, dear.

However, I can relate because I wanted (and still want) the same.

Crazy thing:

I got covid last year and kicked its ass. Why does my body want to live so much? lol
 
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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
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I can relate to that. However I got my vaccine. I've read about the possible long term damage of covid. And shit my life is bad enough.
 
GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
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After watching this I stopped hoping for covid to kill me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I know how you feel. I think one of the worst things about it is that the virus doesn't kill everyone who gets it, many people are debilitated by post viral fatigue after it has gone away from their body. That would probably happen to me if I got it.
 
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May 4, 2021
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In the pandemic most people who died were good people and had so much to live for . The doctors, nurses, care home staff , paramdics, police officers and other front line workers were married, had children, knew their purpose in life
Everyday i see covid19 death figures and I wish it was me.

Why i am alive and healthy when i dont even deserve it. I dont know my purpose in life and have absolutely nothing good going for me.

I should have died from covid19 everyday i wish the virus killed me.
Did I write this? Lol thing is I got COVID a few weeks ago but was asymptomatic. If there was a way to give my life to someone who wanted it I would
 
dying in a-minor

dying in a-minor

Member
May 2, 2021
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I can relate too but I don't live alone, I cannot risk infecting my family. A few people I know died from Covid and it's not a good experience either, very slow and painful death.
 
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the_final_countdown

Specialist
Dec 29, 2020
337
I had it.

Couldn't breathe.

This was before I wanted to die and my health deteriorated. Life was good.

Very scary. Had 911 on speed dial.
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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many people are debilitated by post viral fatigue after it has gone away from their body. That would probably happen to me if I got it.
Yeah, that's what scares me too
 

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