Everyday i grow jealous of Ontwon

[VampQueen]

I hate working. I hate having to worry about bills and stressing over normal life stresses. It's not what I want. Everything is dull to me. Music, food, videos, video games. All seems like they can't grab my attention very well as of lately. I don't get how people can be so happy at work or even on a normal day to day bases. I'm fucking miserable almost everyday. Yet I'm too pussy to CTB.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure if you are referring to the individual who died by Nembutal in the title but if so then I very much envy them as well. To me it'd be such a relief to be able to die peacefully, your feelings really are understandable, existing certainly is very dreadful.

 

[VampQueen]

I'm not sure if you are referring to the individual who died by Nembutal in the title but if so then I very much envy them as well. To me it'd be such a relief to be able to die peacefully, your feelings really are understandable, existing certainly is very dreadful.

I am referring to the person who died to N. They were my IRL friend. I miss and love them dearly

 

[Erick]

I hate working. I hate having to worry about bills and stressing over normal life stresses. It's not what I want. Everything is dull to me. Music, food, videos, video games. All seems like they can't grab my attention very well as of lately. I don't get how people can be so happy at work or even on a normal day to day bases. I'm fucking miserable almost everyday. Yet I'm too pussy to CTB.

Why are you so miserable almost everyday? What's missing in your life?

 

[VampQueen]

Why are you so miserable almost everyday? What's missing in your life?

Whats missing? I don't really have IRL friends, I'm severly touch starved, and my job is very monotonous. I need some more excitement and social engagement in my life.

 

[Erick]

Whats missing? I don't really have IRL friends, I'm severly touch starved, and my job is very monotonous. I need some more excitement and social engagement in my life.

I know the feeling of having no friends. It sucks for sure. I used to have friends, but they all abandoned me after I got an autoimmune disease.
How old are you?

 

[cjruhand]

I hate working. I hate having to worry about bills and stressing over normal life stresses. It's not what I want. Everything is dull to me. Music, food, videos, video games. All seems like they can't grab my attention very well as of lately. I don't get how people can be so happy at work or even on a normal day to day bases. I'm fucking miserable almost everyday. Yet I'm too pussy to CTB.

I don't think that's you being a pussy. You have found a way to CTB peacefully, yet you're still here. I believe there is a part of you that still wants to live. Don't ignore it. If it feels wrong, don't suicide. It shouldn't be forced.