tobias
Member
- Jan 15, 2021
- 6
Hello everyone. Long time I don't post here.
I have been suffering from a depression since I was 11 years old. I am 22. My doctor said it's a dysthymia, so it's chronic. I will have to take meds for the rest of my life. And being totally honest, I prefer to die.
I think about dying everyday. Every second. I feel like I am distracting myself from it, so every time I can smile or laugh, one second later the reality hits me and I am back to my depressive thoughts.
Yesterday I broke up with the guy I was dating and he was my only friend. Now I feel alone. I don't have anyone. He was the only person to talk everyday. He knows everything about me and was my best friend. I feel so vulnerable. I can't even get up from my bed.
I hate myself, I hate being alive. Can't afford a gun and I don't have enough courage to kill myself.
I am searching for methods again and I hope to rest in peace soon. Thank you so much for reading. It's good to feel that somebody cares about me anyway.
I have been suffering from a depression since I was 11 years old. I am 22. My doctor said it's a dysthymia, so it's chronic. I will have to take meds for the rest of my life. And being totally honest, I prefer to die.
I think about dying everyday. Every second. I feel like I am distracting myself from it, so every time I can smile or laugh, one second later the reality hits me and I am back to my depressive thoughts.
Yesterday I broke up with the guy I was dating and he was my only friend. Now I feel alone. I don't have anyone. He was the only person to talk everyday. He knows everything about me and was my best friend. I feel so vulnerable. I can't even get up from my bed.
I hate myself, I hate being alive. Can't afford a gun and I don't have enough courage to kill myself.
I am searching for methods again and I hope to rest in peace soon. Thank you so much for reading. It's good to feel that somebody cares about me anyway.