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ThatStateOfMind
Enlightened
- Nov 13, 2021
- 1,097
For some reason, thinking of the future causes me so much stress. I haven't gone to college, but I do want to. Every time I think about what I want to major in or anything like that, I get stressed. Every time I think about the future in general, I get stressed. I'm a very anxious person.
I've even been to a psychiatrist and they wanted to medicate me with Prozac but I was too afraid to continue with treatment. I'm just so afraid of the future and what comes with it. I just feel so much pressure.
Sometimes I even think about what kind of job I'd have after college and I worry that I'll hate it or it'll be boring, no matter the major. If it matters, what I'm considering most is Computer Engineering, which is both software and hardware. I've considered many things but that's what I've considered most.
I don't know the point of this post, I guess just because I don't have anyone to talk to about this, and some people here have more life experience than me.
It's not my only stressor which may be adding onto it. This kinda stuff just stresses me and increases my suicidal ideation, but I do want to stick around for friends and my mom. I'm trying to find a purpose in life and maybe even college studies will help me with that, but it's a hard journey so far
I've even been to a psychiatrist and they wanted to medicate me with Prozac but I was too afraid to continue with treatment. I'm just so afraid of the future and what comes with it. I just feel so much pressure.
Sometimes I even think about what kind of job I'd have after college and I worry that I'll hate it or it'll be boring, no matter the major. If it matters, what I'm considering most is Computer Engineering, which is both software and hardware. I've considered many things but that's what I've considered most.
I don't know the point of this post, I guess just because I don't have anyone to talk to about this, and some people here have more life experience than me.
It's not my only stressor which may be adding onto it. This kinda stuff just stresses me and increases my suicidal ideation, but I do want to stick around for friends and my mom. I'm trying to find a purpose in life and maybe even college studies will help me with that, but it's a hard journey so far