Ever feel like you just can't relate to anybody on your ideas?

[CatLove56]

I mean I have reddit but even the few good subs i do like are censored in some way and I can't stand that. Far as I know this place isn't. I hate when people say oh it's your depression that's clouding your mind no this life is hell and people fucking suck and make it that way. I'm so worried about my future and the future of the US I really do think collapse is coming and if it doesn't I just feel like I'm delaying the inevitable you know?

Every now and then I think about how alone I am. I just have my sister and parents and without them I don't know what I do. I've never been good about making friends and God forbid a girlfriend or boyfriend. It's all just so pointless and I absolutely hate having a little to no control over anything. I don't know how normal people really carry on their life maybe it's because they have kids and I can't imagine bring somebody into this world. It honestly gets harder and harder to hide my disgust when my coworker say they have kids.

 

[Moonicide]

I am glad you have this community where you can be completely yourself. Everyone is deserving of that.

I mean, it's partly the depression, but it's also being realistic at the same time. We're seeing the world for what it really is... The world is a very dark place, so many bad things are happening every single day. Which is why many of us turn a blind eye, because if we really see things for what they really are, it's painful. Why would you want to live in a world like this? A lot of people try to avoid that and not think so deeply about life. Because realistically, it's terrible that people are suffering every single day and we keep living in ignorance. There's people that are being murdered, raped, abused, etc. on a daily basis, there's people that can't even afford a meal, let alone their medication. There's so much corruption and injustice in this world. No one wants to sit here and think about it. It's so easy to become so depressed over these things. And it sucks that we don't have any control in these situations. So I totally understand where you are coming from.

Bringing a child into this world is very cruel. Because the world isn't getting any better... Having children is a selfish desire. And it is a very scary thing, because you never know how your children will develop. You can have all these expectations and dreams for them, but guess what? You can't choose or decide how your child will respond and grow as an individual. It's very much out of your control. I personally can't see myself ever having children due to the world we live in, along with my genetics. There's so many mental illnesses that run in my family, along with physical ailments. I would never do that to a child. Never.

 

[CFLoser]

Yes.

Sometimes I talk to this guy online. If I walk away from our conversation feeling good, he usually didn't understand anything I said and that fact will become apparent to me shortly after. I assume/hope it goes both ways too I guess

 

[almaranthine]

I especially feel that way at work lately. For some reason the store I work in has been really dead lately, and of course instead of finding something productive to do, employees tend to stand around and talk. I try to be social, but I hate having these empty, inflated conversations. There's no one I can really talk with. I have no friends personally and don't go anywhere besides work because I don't have a car currently. The store is really the only social interaction I get and those interactions constantly disappoint me. You'd think I could manage to at least build up enough of a work "friendship" to get a ride home, but no one really likes me that much. So even though I live about a 6 minute drive from where I work, I have to pay Uber approximately $10 to get home all the time. I hate even trying with people anymore. They constantly disappoint and blow me off. Plus, they don't have anything remotely interesting to talk about.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Yes I don't relate to anyone irl only on this site have I finally found people to relate to. People at my previous jobs were so judgemental. I truly feel out of place where I live where because I'm pretty much the exact opposite of everyone so it's hard to make connections. I'm so thankful for SS.

 

[Vanity]

I've found people that are just as deplorable as me.