Evenings

[Okokaykay]

Every time I go to bed, I pray that something terrible somehow happens to me- Or that for whatever reason, I dont wake up. The same happens when I cross roads or I'm by a ledge. I just want something terrible to happen to me so I dont have to keep dragging myself through every day anymore. It's getting to be a more suffocating feeling now.
It's evening now and I cant stop crying. I just don't want to do tomorrow.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly understandable just wishing to never wake, existing truly is so dreadful and I hate how there isn't the option to just die in our sleep, such a thing would prevent so much unnecessary suffering.