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maidens
" more dead than alive, I endure it "
- Aug 27, 2023
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all I really have is fiction and the internet
I'm a yumejoshi, if I relate to a character a lot I start seeing them as myself and it helps with my sense of identity a little bit, being super interested in a media distracts me from how much I want to die despite the thought always lingering in my mind, I have a bunch of ocs & if something bad happens to me, my ocs are going down with me.
it's helpful but it's also not. if the characters I yumeship with were real they'd probably hate me. I have very severe DPDR & being constantly immersed in fiction and always being on my phone nonstop is only making it worse. the internet already destroyed my sense of reality and I don't even have an identity outside of my online one at this point but I'm a neet who doesn't have anything else to do. im tired and I want to die
I'm a yumejoshi, if I relate to a character a lot I start seeing them as myself and it helps with my sense of identity a little bit, being super interested in a media distracts me from how much I want to die despite the thought always lingering in my mind, I have a bunch of ocs & if something bad happens to me, my ocs are going down with me.
it's helpful but it's also not. if the characters I yumeship with were real they'd probably hate me. I have very severe DPDR & being constantly immersed in fiction and always being on my phone nonstop is only making it worse. the internet already destroyed my sense of reality and I don't even have an identity outside of my online one at this point but I'm a neet who doesn't have anything else to do. im tired and I want to die