...ending up disabled through CTB

[raindrops]

I hear people say... "wouldn't want to do it because I wouldn't want to be a vegetable"
and I think... If I was to end up fully disabled because of jumping, should I care? Then my life will be in someone else's hands. I'd forget these feelings, I wouldn't even know my own name... Sometimes I think... what's so scary about that? either way I'm basically dead.

 

[dysfunctional]

I hear people say... "wouldn't want to do it because I wouldn't want to be a vegetable"
and I think... If I was to end up fully disabled because of jumping, should I care? Then my life will be in someone else's hands. I'd forget these feelings, I wouldn't even know my own name... Sometimes I think... what's so scary about that? either way I'm basically dead.

Depends what the disability is like. I could def see it being worse than you started out if you where just paralyzed or something. But yeah if you where just brain dead or in a coma it would be similar to dying.

 

[TowerUpright]

It also lets you see others having a better life, with you not being able to improve your own, or try CTB. I'd rather not be reminded for the rest of my life what joy others are having while I'm in a wheelchair or bedridden.

 

[Anonymoussn]

I hear people say... "wouldn't want to do it because I wouldn't want to be a vegetable"
and I think... If I was to end up fully disabled because of jumping, should I care? Then my life will be in someone else's hands. I'd forget these feelings, I wouldn't even know my own name... Sometimes I think... what's so scary about that? either way I'm basically dead.

Theres a lot of different things being a 'vegetable' might mean. You might end up in a state where you cant move at all, but can think. And heaven knows you would have a lot of time to think. I think we can all agree that none of us would want to be in that state. Hence why it's important to act with caution when it comes to jumping, or any other form of CTB, so that you dont end up in that state. If you jump and it doesnt result in death your circumstances are beyond your control. So imo it's really important to not do anything drastic unless you're certain it will result in death, or at the very least that it wont result in long lasting damage.

 

[idontwannadothisanym]

I is already veggie so no difference I guess

 

[Living sucks]

I am living proof that when you think things cannot get worse, they just keep getting worse. It can be that bad

 

[Good4Nothing]

I've often looked at severely handicapped people - the ones who can't control their motor functions, can't speak to communicate, can't eat or shit or do anything for themselves - and wondered "what if they're fully aware of everything, but trapped in a body they have no control over?". To me that would be a fate worse than death. That would be a living nightmare.

 

[schopenh]

I'm housebound due to relentless severe neuropathic pain. I suffered moderate-major depression for half a year once in my life and on and off at a mild-moderate capacity since. I'd choose constant depression over this constant physical pain and (invisible) disability. I wouldn't mess around with anything that could leave me in a worse off physical state. SN, N or bust.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I agree, but some of us have certain troubles where we cant handle being alive for so long. Grieving and having only memories untill natural death because of inability to do it again.

I know a girl, woman now, shes in vegetative state, unable to speak eat or move. But shes conscious enough to see snd understand her situation. She cries every day because shes still alive. I wouldnt want that.

To add, shes been like that for last 30+ years

 

[raindrops]

I understand that there's a chance you might still think/feel but what are the chances of that?!

My mum passed away because of an asthma attack and suffered a hypoxic brain injury.
I asked the doctor, would she know who I am? He said no, she wouldn't know my name or relation to her.
I said does she know her own name, he said no.
I asked would she know my grandmother is her mother, he said no.
I'm so glad she's not in that state, I wouldn't wish it on anyone!

Maybe I sound selfish for saying idc if I end up brain dead, deep down I know either way it wouldn't matter, there's just no way I'd end up aware of my thoughts or feelings. There's probably a slim chance I'd end up trapped in my own body :/

 

[Despondent]

Becoming disabled, there's so many possibilities beyond becoming a vegetable. It can be getting brain damage and the outcome is worse then it was before. I'm not saying that if you were to jump, you won't have any physical damage. I'm just saying it could be anything.

For me, imagining someone taking care of me sickens me. It's not a way for me to "live", and especially not a way for the person taking care of me to live. Especially if they're someone who I love dearly.

 

[TowerUpright]

It is surprisingly easy to become a paraplegic, quadraplegic, or a generic vegetable. I know second hand, sadly.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

It is surprisingly easy to become a paraplegic, quadraplegic, or a generic vegetable. I know second hand, sadly.

One mistake is all it takes

 

[Lonelyman]

I get scared of the thought of my brain being there but body gone

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

I hear people say... "wouldn't want to do it because I wouldn't want to be a vegetable"
and I think... If I was to end up fully disabled because of jumping, should I care? Then my life will be in someone else's hands. I'd forget these feelings, I wouldn't even know my own name... Sometimes I think... what's so scary about that? either way I'm basically dead.

In my opinion being in someone else's hands is the worst past. Also, if living with everything working perfectly and at the right place on my body is already bad, then living with some sort of disability would only make it worse. I don't need any complications. I need a way out and that's it.

 

[SpottedPanda]

I'd do everything in my power as a conscious, thinking being to avoid it, but I must admit, I'm not overly phased by the idea of becoming disabled in some way.

That's definitely not to say I'd do something stupid and reckless, if it was within my awareness and education to avoid it.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Ending up disabled from a failed CTB attempt scares me, mainly because I would end up kinda homeless with no family, nothing! Whilst I clearly don't care about them much if I am planning a CTB path, to live and not be in touch with them would be more hell then I can imagine, a pain beyond thoughts a human could handle
Whilst the plus side would be not actually having to give a fuck about anything any more...

 

[stormy_night]

You wouldn't say that once you experienced it. It is hell on earth to be vegetable disabled person.

 

[raindrops]

Ending up disabled from a failed CTB attempt scares me, mainly because I would end up kinda homeless with no family, nothing! Whilst I clearly don't care about them much if I am planning a CTB path, to live and not be in touch with them would be more hell then I can imagine, a pain beyond thoughts a human could handle
Whilst the plus side would be not actually having to give a fuck about anything any more...

Right, not giving a fuck anymore, that's what I want, to not give a fuck.
In the UK they would have somewhere to house a person who ended up totally incapable surely.

You wouldn't say that once you experienced it. It is hell on earth to be vegetable disabled person.

I know, I know. I'm talking about brain damage, god it sounds so morbid.
My mother passed away and suffered a hypoxic brain injury from an asthma attack. The doctors told me that she wouldn't know who I am or who her mum is ever again, breaks my heart, I would do anything to have my mum back, she was really the best mum ever.
I hate speaking about this but all I'm saying is that a doctor has told me you won't remember anything and in fact wouldn't live in pain.
When I asked will any memory ever come back... he said no, not that bluntly but it was a no.

I would do anything to forget my ex partner. I know I sound morbid, selfish and insensitive. I'd love to pluck up the courage, jump from 104m , what will happen though if I do

I get scared of the thought of my brain being there but body gone

Same.
I think if you don't get oxygen for a certain amount of time, unfortunately the brain does go.

 

[HoolioCoolio]

I'm housebound due to relentless severe neuropathic pain. I suffered moderate-major depression for half a year once in my life and on and off at a mild-moderate capacity since. I'd choose constant depression over this constant physical pain and (invisible) disability. I wouldn't mess around with anything that could leave me in a worse off physical state. SN, N or bust.

I feel you I also have chronic nerve pain, it's like nobody can never fully understand what it's like without having it. Very hard to get support these days