The Dark Chaos

The Dark Chaos

Craving chaos..
Apr 17, 2020
215
Just curious..
Do you really wanna end your life or do you just wannaa end your pain or just start your life all over again with new people and a new place maybe?
I think my biggest pain is living only so I just wannaa end my life and I don't wannaa be a part of the process of reincarnation (if it happens). The thought of reincarnation sometimes terrifies me. I don't wannaa live life again no matter how much good it might be. I'm just tired. Exhausted actually. Of living, of breathing, of my heart beating and every single thing.
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
I want to end my pain. But I also do not want to live life again. Thinking about it exhausts me. I'm sorry for your pain. :heart:
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
My life feels irreparable. Too much damage, too far gone. I want to both end the suffering and have a fresh start, if that's even how it works.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
Ending my life means there's zero chance of me having to reexperience pain again. I live with my guilt every day.
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
1,831
Not sure to be honest. I think it is ending pain and fear of future pain. If the future pain thing got sorted out, if I inherited a large sum of money, I think I could enjoy my life. It is having to make a living in a world I dont want to live in.
 
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GoBack

GoBack

Paragon
Apr 25, 2020
997
Both. The pain is unbearable now and life is irreparable
 
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L

Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,143
If my health was good like it used to be i would want to live forever. Only looking to end the pain and unfortunately the only way is to leave my body. But the fear of the pain being eternal if i ctb is stopping me
 
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deadpixels

deadpixels

Student
May 2, 2020
133
The pain may cease but the scars will stay. I hope that I end with my life and, from my perspective, it will be as if I never existed.
 
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Erase.myself

Erase.myself

My body is a prison
Jan 4, 2020
198
I would say to end my pain and my life (both). I am in a lot of emotional pain and at the same time, I don't see life as worth living anymore for a variety of reasons. I anticipate the moment when I stop breathing and my broken, sinking heart takes its last beat. Alas, I will be free. I also feel like a prisoner of this body I'm in (hence my caption), due to my Anorexia and Body Dysmorphia Disorder. I cannot continue to live in this body that I feel is so foreign to me (trapped). I apologize if this doesn't make sense; it's hard to explain.

Internal battles/struggles coupled with mental illness and unfortunate external circumstances. Pretty much sums it up. Sorry for long post. :(
 
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Enterthevoid

Enterthevoid

Recovery Fatigued
May 3, 2020
5
I want the pain to end, but since the source of my pain is my poor mental health and trauma, ending my life is the only way to do that. I'm tired of being me. Of living in my miserable head, not being able to think positively, and the fact that it affects anyone I get close to. My pain in all reality has happened in the past. I just can't seem to heal... the pain follows me everywhere and poisons any attempt I make at recovery
 
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disabledandhopeless

disabledandhopeless

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2020
1,893
I want to end my pain... but if I fail to end my pain, then I'll end my life
 

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