Venting Dysphoria fucking sucks and I’m tired of it

[gethsemane]

It's such a back and forth every day to try and balance what I can do to pass and how much my body will actually let me do what I want. I wish I could just go on HRT and fix all this, but that means getting disowned and I'm not sure I can do that yet. I'm kind of just tired of everything, honestly