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Yoko26

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Nov 9, 2019
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Hello Everyone!

how's everyone with this New Years bullshit?
I can't stand it, my husband passed away in a terrible car wreck almost 3 months ago, and I can't do it anymore.
His parents are up there fighting for the money and they don't even care about their (adopted) son. can you believe? Not even putting him to rest but fighting legally to get the money from his life insurance he left for me!
Anyway, I'm just resisting for the legal thing for him, I don't want and I can't without him, I drank tonight to stand a little bit tonight but what about taking an overdose of sleeping aids with alcohol dyphenhidramine with alcohol and melatonin...would that help to CTB?
Thank you!
 
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jgm63

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Methods that aren't planned well don't usually have good outcomes.
In general I think it's very hard to OD on OTC items.
Diphenhydramine *might* be a possible exception, but it does not sound like a good method at all, and it might need a very high dose.

Try searching this site for benadryl and/or diphenhydramine.

I think these might be some of best threads discussing it :
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/update-to-my-adventure.26509/
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/benadryl.27082/

I think you would be much better off planning, and choosing a better method.

Note : As always, please note that I strongly encourage you to seek help with whatever is troubling you. With the right help things can improve. There are many sources of help if you look and reach out. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping out of harm's way.
 
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calendulo

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Hello Everyone!

how's everyone with this New Years bullshit?
I can't stand it, my husband passed away in a terrible car wreck almost 3 months ago, and I can't do it anymore.
His parents are up there fighting for the money and they don't even care about their (adopted) son. can you believe? Not even putting him to rest but fighting legally to get the money from his life insurance he left for me!
Anyway, I'm just resisting for the legal thing for him, I don't want and I can't without him, I drank tonight to stand a little bit tonight but what about taking an overdose of sleeping aids with alcohol dyphenhidramine with alcohol and melatonin...would that help to CTB?
Thank you!

I am really sorry about your lost.
Dyphenhidramine is just an antiemetic, It is not useful itself.
 
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Yoko26

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Nov 9, 2019
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Hello everyone so ... this is what happened...it didn't work obviously.
i took a bunch of dyphenhidramine and melatonins, drank alcohol and a bunch of excedrins at 1am...woke up at 4 with terrible stomach pains, fever and non stop vomiting.
had to call the doctor because I was crawling and fever was getting higher and higher...doctor came at 7am and prescribed something to stop the vomit and I've slept all day .
 
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Dec 1, 2019
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Please call 911 and get some help. OTC overdose has very low success rate. I once overdosed tylenol for ctb purpose. I couldn't stop vomiting. It is not the kind of vomit you can stop. You must get help because you mostly like to fail, and if you don't ask for help, your situation would be worse than this. Sorry to saying like this, but this is based on my experience. I think you can stop vomiting only you get a proper aid by your doctor.
 
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Nov 20, 2019
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Diphenhydramine is a viable method but it requires high doses, 2.8g at a minimum according to one source but I wouldn't go any less than 5g. It has many potential side effects, delirium, tactile hallucinations, various causes of heart failure, and much more. If this is even being considered you would need short and long acting benzo's to put you to sleep otherwise it is not a good idea to pursue this method. It is lethal provided the dose is high enough, people think they can fatally overdose with 1g-1.5g but that isn't so. You would also need antiemetics, there is more to it, feel free to PM me but if you have better methods available I'd recommend them. I am not advising you harm yourself, just simply answering the question you asked, do with the information what you would like.
 
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I took a bottle of dramine on a dare at a party when I was younger and blacked out. My friends said I was standing on the bed naked swinging my dick around like a helicopter.
 
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TiredAndReadyToGo

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I took a bottle of dramine on a dare at a party when I was younger and blacked out. My friends said I was standing on the bed naked swinging my dick around like a helicopter.
Diphenhydrinate is different than Diphenhydramine, Hydrinate has Hydramine plus another ingredient. If you take a high dose because even at a full bottle at 25mg per pill, 60 pills in the bottle, thats only 1.5g, well below the lethal range. Diphen is a dose dependent drug so it can still be lethal but at lower doses like 1.5g you will only really get the side effects and none of the lethality. Psychosis is a very real side effect of this drug which can lead you to you being found without you trying and if you take precautions, that's why even though I'm certain diphen would work I opted to go with SN as it is faster and has less unpleasant side effects.
 
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Diphenhydramine is a viable method but it requires high doses, 2.8g at a minimum according to one source but I wouldn't go any less than 5g. It has many potential side effects, delirium, tactile hallucinations, various causes of heart failure, and much more. If this is even being considered you would need short and long acting benzo's to put you to sleep otherwise it is not a good idea to pursue this method. It is lethal provided the dose is high enough, people think they can fatally overdose with 1g-1.5g but that isn't so. You would also need antiemetics, there is more to it, feel free to PM me but if you have better methods available I'd recommend them. I am not advising you harm yourself, just simply answering the question you asked, do with the information what you would like.
Would be useful if you could summarise your various thoughts on this method into a small 1 or 2 page "write up". Not as to recommend the method, but just so people have the information that you gathered. You could put multi terms into the thread title, for search reasons : eg "Method : Diphenhydramine Benadryl over the counter OTC". However, if you don't have time then I understand, since write-ups are time consuming because you have to try to be responsible and double check all your facts....
 
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Dec 27, 2019
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Just a quick little story:

When I was 14 I overdosed on Benadryl. I weighed around 120 pounds and took 300mg. I started seizing and I can barely remember the following days. I was delirious, had a high fever, and in the hospital I could only say "pink pills" when they asked what I took. Also, it will cause vivid and most likely horrific hallucinations if you don't fall asleep (assuming you would even be able to remember). I had a problem with abusing Benadryl and Dramamine(dimenhydrinate) for that reason. I liked the fear. I don't know how effective this would be as an actual method to ctb. I wouldn't suggest it personally. I wish you the best.
 
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APharmaDestroyedLife

Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
Nov 4, 2019
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I am so sorry about your loss. It's truly mind blowing that the loss of life can bring out the greed in others. As if this time was not stressful enough for you...

My advice is to just hang on, I have lost a lot of people I love, and it really does get easier. No you never get over it, but you truly learn to live with the pain, you learn to smile again , and eventually life goes on.

Ask yourself what would your husband want for you?

Taking your own life, is probably not what he would want. But, it is your life to choose. I would suggest you give yourself some more time, during that time you can try to focus on healing.

If you do end up making the choice to check out, you do not want to do it impulsively. So many of those attempts fail, and when you're dealing with medication overdoses there is the potential for long term organ damage. You certainly don't want to wake up in worse shape. Also depending on where you live consider the fact that a failed attempt could be a way 1 trip to a psychiatric ward, where you won't have any rites , you will be at the mercy of the doctor in charge on how long you have to stay there, you won't even be allowed to wear shoes.

Please try to hold on to any light you can find, losing someone you love is devastating, being caught in a legal battle while you are in a state of grief makes it even worse, but one day it will all be behind you, and I don't see any judge that would side in favor of the parents.
Just a quick little story:

When I was 14 I overdosed on Benadryl. I weighed around 120 pounds and took 300mg. I started seizing and I can barely remember the following days. I was delirious, had a high fever, and in the hospital I could only say "pink pills" when they asked what I took. Also, it will cause vivid and most likely horrific hallucinations if you don't fall asleep (assuming you would even be able to remember). I had a problem with abusing Benadryl and Dramamine(dimenhydrinate) for that reason. I liked the fear. I don't know how effective this would be as an actual method to ctb. I wouldn't suggest it personally. I wish you the best.
I can also personally vouch for this, I had a nightmare of an experience taking more than the recommended dose... its impossible to believe an OTC could do these things... but its bad, for me it was torture for an hour, severe anxiety, unable to swallow, unable to walk more than a few steps without falling over... that is the last i remember , then I woke up in the hospital hallucinating , unable to walk, and being pumped full of some sort of rehydration IV.
 
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Just a quick little story:

When I was 14 I overdosed on Benadryl. I weighed around 120 pounds and took 300mg. I started seizing and I can barely remember the following days. I was delirious, had a high fever, and in the hospital I could only say "pink pills" when they asked what I took. Also, it will cause vivid and most likely horrific hallucinations if you don't fall asleep (assuming you would even be able to remember). I had a problem with abusing Benadryl and Dramamine(dimenhydrinate) for that reason. I liked the fear. I don't know how effective this would be as an actual method to ctb. I wouldn't suggest it personally. I wish you the best.
Just to say, 300mg is barely an overdose, it is a dose dependent drug, so you would need minimum 2.8g according to one source and 4g minimum according to another. It was designed to have a high therapeutic index so it can't be easily abused. It is effective and was a part of the early DDMP2 protocal but was changed as the whole combination required excessive amounts of each drug. Using it to CTB on it's own you would need the high dose, as well as benzo's and antiemetics. There is a full cocktail of you look up "Diphenhydramine Wikibooks", I highly suggest you research the method before getting to far into it. Also don't recommend crushing the pills, way too much powder. I'd look at the posts on here with information rather than stories of past uses because almost all of them are way underdosed for what OP is looking for. It isn't necessarily going to be the most peaceful way unless you have the proper preparation and benzo's. If there are any questions on the method please PM and I can provide more info there.

I'm not encouraging you to hurt/harm yourself in anyway, the choices you make are yours and yours alone. Please consider your choices and be sure of your decision. We will support you in whatever you decide on.
 
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Yoko26

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I am so sorry about your loss. It's truly mind blowing that the loss of life can bring out the greed in others. As if this time was not stressful enough for you...

My advice is to just hang on, I have lost a lot of people I love, and it really does get easier. No you never get over it, but you truly learn to live with the pain, you learn to smile again , and eventually life goes on.

Ask yourself what would your husband want for you?

Taking your own life, is probably not what he would want. But, it is your life to choose. I would suggest you give yourself some more time, during that time you can try to focus on healing.

If you do end up making the choice to check out, you do not want to do it impulsively. So many of those attempts fail, and when you're dealing with medication overdoses there is the potential for long term organ damage. You certainly don't want to wake up in worse shape. Also depending on where you live consider the fact that a failed attempt could be a way 1 trip to a psychiatric ward, where you won't have any rites , you will be at the mercy of the doctor in charge on how long you have to stay there, you won't even be allowed to wear shoes.

Please try to hold on to any light you can find, losing someone you love is devastating, being caught in a legal battle while you are in a state of grief makes it even worse, but one day it will all be behind you, and I don't see any judge that would side in favor of the parents.

I can also personally vouch for this, I had a nightmare of an experience taking more than the recommended dose... its impossible to believe an OTC could do these things... but its bad, for me it was torture for an hour, severe anxiety, unable to swallow, unable to walk more than a few steps without falling over... that is the last i remember , then I woke up in the hospital hallucinating , unable to walk, and being pumped full of some sort of rehydration IV.
Thank you so much for taking your time and writing me so warm words...I know impulse is not the best thing now after ending with fever and vomiting for more than 24 hours...I set a deadline of 6 months or the end of the legal battle whatever it comes first. Then I'll decide to CTB or continue. Meanwhile I'll start making the proper arrangements like purchasing a funeral expenses insurance and writing a will.
 

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