Dying in my bed with my headphones in

[PrincessInWhite]

This has been the fantasy for me as long as I've had suicidal ideations. It rules out any method such as jumping, drowning, hanging, etc. I am deadset against shooting myself for personal reasons. I have attempted in the past with sleeping pills and a plastic bag but as many of you know, the impulse takes over and it's often ripped off. I like the CO2 concept but obviously I can't just fill my room with it, I'd need the exit bag, and I'm not very handy with stuff like that and don't feel like spending a ton of money only to have it instantly fail. I saw the megathread about methods and the explanation provided still puzzled me, lol.

With a critical make or break event coming up this wednesday I am considering expanding my options a bit, but feel a bit scared to do it somewhere not in my bed, silly as that sounds. Anyone else in a similar conundrum?

 

[Struggling]

Look up the megathread on night night method and tourniquet method. Both relatively light on resource level. Can be done from comfort of bed. Takes patience from what I read.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

Look up the megathread on night night method and tourniquet method. Both relatively light on resource level. Can be done from comfort of bed. Takes patience from what I read.

thank you friend! I will have to check that out!

 

[freetoleave]

a bigger plastic bag to have enough oxygen and time to deeply fall asleep, a stronger medication, two or three days of sleep deprivation and starving could help.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

my plastic bag was already quite big and unfortunately the pills I had were the strongest I could realistically get (xanax, ambien)- I would never be able to get a script for barbs with my history, and I don't have chronic pain so opioids aren't an option either. The sleep deprivation is an interesting idea though, I Feel that would be helpful for some other methods as well! Thank you for advice/ideas!

Look up the megathread on night night method and tourniquet method. Both relatively light on resource level. Can be done from comfort of bed. Takes patience from what I read.

ok I am having zero luck finding those threads...would you be able to link me? So sorry to ask!

 

[dmoroden]

ohh... dying in bed with headphones... that sounds ideal...

my best option for now its similar... would be the CO method, in my car, far away from the city, listening to my fav songs

 

[Struggling]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/tourniquet-method-guide.1203/

Just looking for the other

 

[Roberto]

Can I ask you why? How old are you?
Have you tried to keep the bag open with the hand until sleeping?

 

[Struggling]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-night-night-method-mega-thread.6834/page-8#post-225896 You'll have to go back to the beginning

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Anyone else in a similar conundrum?

Like you, I'd really like to go placidly. For YEARS I've been reading books, articles, online reports... I've lurked in dozens of suicide and depression forums. I have external hard drives full of photos, diagrams, texts from people who've tried... But it's not like changing your own car's oil or fixing an air conditioner compressor. At least not for me. Planning and carrying out my own suicide involves extra emotional dimensions that make the simple mechanics far, far harder. As gruesome as shooting my brains out would be, it's more and more my default option. I just want to pull a trigger and have instant annihilation. No waiting at all. No pain at all. Luckily, I have no family or friends to worry about the effects on them, and I can go someplace other humans won't have to find me. Just when I think I've found another method for me, I read reports about someone else suffering with the method. Or the method involves too much set-up time...

I think I get where you're coming from. After so much pain living, it seems dying should be easy. Good luck.

my best option for now its similar... would be the CO method, in my car, far away from the city, listening to my fav songs

Just a note to share I really like your footer quote about humans being intelligent idiots. :)

 

[Dead beat dad]

Just drifting off in to a peaceful sleep is my dream. I sincerely hope that you find a way to find your peace, no pain, just heavy eyelids, a smile inside knowing things will soon be still.
Maybe CO and a big dose of tiredness.
Good luck
DBD

 

[PrincessInWhite]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/tourniquet-method-guide.1203/

Just looking for the other

thank you SO much!! just having this option here to read through is calming. I appreciate it greatly!

 

[SMarie1204]

I wonder what you'd listen to...is there a suicide playlist thread somewhere?

& Aurora was my favorite disney princess sooooo....

 

[GeorgeJL]

Sodium Nitrite

 

[PrincessInWhite]

I wonder what you'd listen to...is there a suicide playlist thread somewhere?

& Aurora was my favorite disney princess sooooo....

I am the master of playlist making (at least for my own music taste LOL) so I would probably make my own :)
It was one of my favorite movies when I was little! My favorite princesses are Ariel and Mulan but I love this picture of Aurora so much

 

[SMarie1204]

3 minutes left on the clock--what song would you wanna be hearing as you go?

 

[bubbletea]

Like you, I'd really like to go placidly. For YEARS I've been reading books, articles, online reports... I've lurked in dozens of suicide and depression forums. I have external hard drives full of photos, diagrams, texts from people who've tried... But it's not like changing your own car's oil or fixing an air conditioner compressor. At least not for me. Planning and carrying out my own suicide involves extra emotional dimensions that make the simple mechanics far, far harder. As gruesome as shooting my brains out would be, it's more and more my default option. I just want to pull a trigger and have instant annihilation. No waiting at all. No pain at all. Luckily, I have no family or friends to worry about the effects on them, and I can go someplace other humans won't have to find me. Just when I think I've found another method for me, I read reports about someone else suffering with the method. Or the method involves too much set-up time...

I think I get where you're coming from. After so much pain living, it seems dying should be easy. Good luck.


Just a note to share I really like your footer quote about humans being intelligent idiots. :)

Why not N as your method?

 

[kwalah]

I'm going to do SN and watch a movie in bed or listen to music. Hopefully it's kinda peaceful.

 

[SMarie1204]

I'm going to do SN and watch a movie in bed or listen to music. Hopefully it's kinda peaceful.

I would live forever just bc I wouldn't be able to decide on a movie, lol.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Why not N as your method?

I've read too many reports of complications from drugs even when the protocol was believed to be iron-clad. That and a few other issues. I'm not trying to discourage anyone else from any particular method. I am just looking more closely into other methods. Peace and good luck.

 

[zen]

This has been the fantasy for me as long as I've had suicidal ideations. It rules out any method such as jumping, drowning, hanging, etc. I am deadset against shooting myself for personal reasons. I have attempted in the past with sleeping pills and a plastic bag but as many of you know, the impulse takes over and it's often ripped off. I like the CO2 concept but obviously I can't just fill my room with it, I'd need the exit bag, and I'm not very handy with stuff like that and don't feel like spending a ton of money only to have it instantly fail. I saw the megathread about methods and the explanation provided still puzzled me, lol.

With a critical make or break event coming up this wednesday I am considering expanding my options a bit, but feel a bit scared to do it somewhere not in my bed, silly as that sounds. Anyone else in a similar conundrum?

hello i have 25+ benzos rescribed for sleep disorders...how do i use them for sure death...how do i perform partil strangulation

 

[zen]

Can I ask you why? How old are you?
Have you tried to keep the bag open with the hand until sleeping?

Hi
Is it possible to keep bag open until falling asleep(after taking benzos)?..how do we know we gonna fall asleep and close the bag?

 

[Roberto]

Hi
Is it possible to keep bag open until falling asleep(after taking benzos)?..how do we know we gonna fall asleep and close the bag?

I think it as the hand should fall by gravity and if the opening has a elastic rubber it should stop from allowing outside oxigen.
Better don't have my words as true and research if that could work.

 

[406metallicblue]

Hi
Is it possible to keep bag open until falling asleep(after taking benzos)?..how do we know we gonna fall asleep and close the bag?

This is a method advocated by Derek Humphry in Final Exit. He recommends taking sleeping pills/benzos/alcohol and keeping thumbs under the elasticated bag until sleep takes over, the hands drop and the bag is sealed. I have read that survival instinct kicks in and you can take the bag off, perhaps unless you are very heavily sedated. Sorry it's not much use, this method appealed to me in the past until i got diverted to CO. There is a video on youtube showing the method.

 

[zen]

This is a method advocated by Derek Humphry in Final Exit. He recommends taking sleeping pills/benzos/alcohol and keeping thumbs under the elasticated bag until sleep takes over, the hands drop and the bag is sealed. I have read that survival instinct kicks in and you can take the bag off, perhaps unless you are very heavily sedated. Sorry it's not much use, this method appealed to me in the past until i got diverted to CO. There is a video on youtube showing the method.

Whats the video title?
We have to take benzos only(i got like 20)..or alcohol also needs to be taken...i never have had alcohol..

 

[406metallicblue]

Here is the video..

 

[Roberto]

This is a method advocated by Derek Humphry in Final Exit. He recommends taking sleeping pills/benzos/alcohol and keeping thumbs under the elasticated bag until sleep takes over, the hands drop and the bag is sealed. I have read that survival instinct kicks in and you can take the bag off, perhaps unless you are very heavily sedated. Sorry it's not much use, this method appealed to me in the past until i got diverted to CO. There is a video on youtube showing the method.

May be with a big bag, so the de descent of O2 is slower so the body can be fooled. It's just an idea.

Whats the video title?
We have to take benzos only(i got like 20)..or alcohol also needs to be taken...i never have had alcohol..

diazepam is a slow acting benzo it would be better to use lorazepam (Ativan), alprazolam (Xanax), and clonazepam (Klonopin) that have intermediate onsets of action.