Dxm anyone?

[BlackDragonof1989]

Hello, does anyone else use dxm, as in, cough syrup to self-medicate? I currently have been using about 300 mg a day to get out of my mind and it seems to really help, but then I read reports about people becoming "addicted" and dependent on it, and possible brain damage. It quiets my suicidal thoughts though I'm not beyond passive ideation, but it seems to help the whole day though 300 may even be a bit much. I feel more empathetic, not as easily upset, more desiring socializing, it's almost a spiritual feeling. Not everyone has an enzyme for processing the DXM apparently, and I believe every body is different. Well, I just wanted to share my dxm story, it is helping me short term but these forums have been a great comfort as well, when I have had very low days. I hope this may help some of you to not suffer so much, even if you still go through with your suicide, to reduce the pain. If it doesn't help it makes things worse, I am sorry. I currently buy Robafen cough gels via Amazon. Also seems to reduce joint pain since I am a transcriptionist currently for work due to social anxiety and such but about 20,000 in debt one ER night had me at 3,000 plus medical expenses after insurance! But I'm trying eating healthier, like sardines everyday, fish oil, high dose vitamin C, enough protein, green smoothies, light exercise, but dxm takes the cake <3

 

[Dead_Inside]

Cough medicine, alcohol, Oxys ....anything else that will take me down a peg and make me feel just a little less ..... me?
It's good for sleep for sure, plus they say not to mix all that stuff so I do : )

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Cough medicine, alcohol, Oxys ....anything else that will take me down a peg and make me feel just a little less ..... me?
It's good for sleep for sure, plus they say not to mix all that stuff so I do : )

Nice, I wish I could try some oxys but I'm a wuss when it comes to getting anything via prescription and definitely don't wanna risk streeet haha, though fentanyl might be a painless way to go, I would want to be in control of my time <3 Yeah me too, I feel you my mother was an alcoholic more of her life than not, runs in the family and so I got her biology more than my dad's it seems, he was real laid back, easy going no addictions per se, though depends on how you phrase it and such you know. I'd love to get a little wasted though sometime, scared to become an alky but I've read that dxm is similar in effects in some ways, I feel actually it might be safer but can cause mania and psychosis just everything's a tight rope you know? Hahaha. This post probably indicates mania and psychosis but I feel pretty good atm. xD But yeah trying to find a high with the least damage as alcohol pretty much destroyed my mom and she was ready to go in her final weeks, though I sort of made it worse I kinda wish I had discovered dxm then. But antinatalist when sober and such, still am. Life can be nice, but people fall into pollyanna delusions I feel, though dxm helps give me a spiritual feeling of things making sense though there's no rational reasoning there, shows that biology has some effect on religiosity perhaps?

 

[Dead_Inside]

Nice, I wish I could try some oxys but I'm a wuss when it comes to getting anything via prescription and definitely don't wanna risk streeet haha, though fentanyl might be a painless way to go, I would want to be in control of my time <3 Yeah me too, I feel you my mother was an alcoholic more of her life than not, runs in the family and so I got her biology more than my dad's it seems, he was real laid back, easy going no addictions per se, though depends on how you phrase it and such you know. I'd love to get a little wasted though sometime, scared to become an alky but I've read that dxm is similar in effects in some ways, I feel actually it might be safer but can cause mania and psychosis just everything's a tight rope you know? Hahaha. This post probably indicates mania and psychosis but I feel pretty good atm. xD But yeah trying to find a high with the least damage as alcohol pretty much destroyed my mom and she was ready to go in her final weeks, though I sort of made it worse I kinda wish I had discovered dxm then. But antinatalist when sober and such, still am. Life can be nice, but people fall into pollyanna delusions I feel, though dxm helps give me a spiritual feeling of things making sense though there's no rational reasoning there, shows that biology has some effect on religiosity perhaps?

Yeah the Oxys are a bit like the dxm for me real nice high .... every thing feels a bit better for a few. Don't have a prescription... but the internet provides : )
Think they said some people feel "god/religion" differently than others ... it's a gene or some such that allows you to feel that spiritual feeling.
Hahaha .... don't mean to be an alcoholic or a bit of an addict, but I worry I would just be here trying to do stupid shit to myself because I wanted to die. I am not a violent person whether high or drunk or sober so figure it doesn't really hurt anyone but me ... and makes me better to be around.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Yeah the Oxys are a bit like the dxm for me real nice high .... every thing feels a bit better for a few. Don't have a prescription... but the internet provides : )
Think they said some people feel "god/religion" differently than others ... it's a gene or some such that allows you to feel that spiritual feeling.
Hahaha .... don't mean to be an alcoholic or a bit of an addict, but I worry I would just be here trying to do stupid shit to myself because I wanted to die. I am not a violent person whether high or drunk or sober so figure it doesn't really hurt anyone but me ... and makes me better to be around.

Yeah the older I get the more I can accept I think that although there may be a spiritual dimension considering that you incarnated into your body at a time and place and me in mine and to me that's spiritual but that's just my opinion and I could be wrong, there's a lot I don't understand the sciences and all, but yeah I think we're complex biochemical machines too genetics as well good point, it's like this Ram Dass video I watched I don't necessarily follow his views but just wanted to check up on him as he's getting pretty old (though not to the 112 year old WWII veterean guy from Texas, that guy was born in the Edwardian era mind blown but to a rock we're all young) but yeah he was like "We're spiritual beings dipping into mortal bodies" and it stuck with me.

Don't worry though no judgement from me like I believe my mother was just trying to help herself the only way she knew how, she was a baby boomer before all this wonderful information availability we have with the Internet so had I been in her place I probably would have tried booze first, just nasty stuff to me, but a little is probably beneficial, too much of anything is bad though. That 112 year old guy smokes cigars and drinks whiskey still so maybe there really is a time for us to go? So what about the suicides that are successful were those meant to be or maybe I'm just reading anything things too much but it's interesting. I like to read NDEs every now and then too. I would be fine with nothing after death, just like before we lived, worst case scenario as I've seen some others like Definitely Worried point out on here is that there is some place of torment we go to after we die but on dxm it just doesn't make sense, I feel this forgiveness and love, again maybe there's nothing at all though and it's just us trying to put order and sense into the universe.

Dxm rant sorry. Definitely didn't go through the ego death but felt this might be helpful to remind people of, nothing not known just bringing it up again. Yeah man, me too substances definitely can help or hinder how I relate to others, I am skeptical about 12 step programs and AA honestly, all organized religion, even if they mean well it feels like people who are kind of sorry cringe term normies in various ways saying our way or the high way we're right you're wrong. Ego games. But what works for one person may not work for us, I play ego games too. Might take some diphenhydramine to mellow this lol, finding chamomile and valerian and low dose dph good for sleep lately.

But yeah I would love to try some opiates sometime but don't wanna get hooked, I imagine if I think finding a sweet spot with diphenhydramine is nice, I imagine a proper drug would have me hooked lol. Sweet though.

 

[Dead_Inside]

NDEs can definitely blow my mind. I think there must be more than just what we see .... I don't want life to be just so damn meaningless. Figure just like you can't remember being in the womb you don't necessarily remember what happens after death either.
Also yeah don't start opiates. It's great, no lie. But shit, every time I have to pull back sucks. And it limits the jobs I can take even though I never get high at work : (
But yeah feels like the whole universe can talk to me when I get it right.

 

[thetwilightzone]

I envy Americans who have had a history of opiates and SSRI's being "pushed" (don't take that negatively, it's better than being denied when you need them!) to be prescribed by doctors. The reverse here in Western Europe is that doctors won't even prescribe anti-psychotics to people who need them because of the "side effects".

On the plus side, I can get codeine phosphate OTC here which I found out isn't available in the United States. Not tried dextromethorphan yet but luckily I can get it here.