I tried MDMA really late in life at 28 only few months ago... Due to being on meds my whole life that stopped it working I used to think it was overrated... Shit was I wrong.
Trouble is everything was fantastic and It made me stupid that I felt I could conquer life and had things to live for.
I think I'll be taking ketamine at about 100 mg of top shards. Load up on benzos. Maybe a couple of drinks... Despite being 3 years sober. Im lucky that I'm now strong enough (only because of benzos) to not take a drink but if i'm definitely going I might consider it, but I'm worried that it'll have the same effect as mdma and make me think life's worth it, or make a mess of it.
Weed I doubt because it just slows things down makes me fearful.
Maybe a hit of good Heroin.